fml
just when I start to be happy again and I feel like things are lookign up everything juss falls apart again and I can't get rid of this constant blah feeling, I don't wanna do anything, I have no motivation, I juss wanna sleep and cry, everything frieken sucks. Altough I can't pinpoint why I feel shitty, there's def. a few things not helping my mood...
- nobody will give me a car loan, it's driving me crazy, I get all hopefull everytime I try then juss get let down, where's my pessimism when I need it...
- guys frieken suck, they are so completely confusing, why can;t their actions match their words?
- Brian's cell got shut off so now until he gets around to buying a prepaid I have like no way to get a hold of him 'cept online, and he goes online like once a week, so I just get to sit around and wait for him to call me which we all know he sucks at. And everytime he does get a hold of me wanting me to come over I can't, cuz he calls me Friday ngith when I'm outwith my friends already, or like 11:00PM (like last night) when i have to work at 7 the next day, there would be no poin in me driving there, I'd be driving there just to sleep like 4 hours... I juss wanna see him and talk about stuff n get it over with so I can feel better, I hate not knowing wtf is going on with us from one day to the next, and conversations over text and email, and even phone with him just don't cut it.
- work has kinda sucked lately, I hate gettign up at 5 AM to go to work for 7, it's just so not the way my body functions, on top of that my client is dying, and it's sad, and I hate it.
I guess that's it, idk, fuckin blah
I want my happy back
- nobody will give me a car loan, it's driving me crazy, I get all hopefull everytime I try then juss get let down, where's my pessimism when I need it...
- guys frieken suck, they are so completely confusing, why can;t their actions match their words?
- Brian's cell got shut off so now until he gets around to buying a prepaid I have like no way to get a hold of him 'cept online, and he goes online like once a week, so I just get to sit around and wait for him to call me which we all know he sucks at. And everytime he does get a hold of me wanting me to come over I can't, cuz he calls me Friday ngith when I'm outwith my friends already, or like 11:00PM (like last night) when i have to work at 7 the next day, there would be no poin in me driving there, I'd be driving there just to sleep like 4 hours... I juss wanna see him and talk about stuff n get it over with so I can feel better, I hate not knowing wtf is going on with us from one day to the next, and conversations over text and email, and even phone with him just don't cut it.
- work has kinda sucked lately, I hate gettign up at 5 AM to go to work for 7, it's just so not the way my body functions, on top of that my client is dying, and it's sad, and I hate it.
I guess that's it, idk, fuckin blah
I want my happy back