*sigh*
so today I was at my mom's before work, and she decides to tell me that she told my aunt that if anything ever happens to her she wants me to take Kayla. I dunno why it surprised me so much, I mean that's what I want, well nto what I want, but I mean it's a better choice thean having my aunt who is older than my mom take her. She told her that I know Kayla and I know all her doctors and I'm young and I have more patience (I think that was a lie) and yadda yadda, she said my aunt sound relieved. She told my grandma thogh who got all shook up cuz she doesn't wanna think about the "if something happens to my mom" part. I don't either. My mom said don't worry nothign will happen it's just an incase thing, I'm glad she thinks liek that. I also live in my happy lil world of denial and delusions, it's the only way to make it through the day. I juss keep pretending everythign is fine and it's working, I know I usually try to be realistic but the reality that my mom has cancer and it's spreadable isn't one I chose to think about too often. But back to Kayla, my mom's gonna look into the legal issues of it see if there's a way we can make it formal so if that day ever comes I won't have to go to court and battle thr crack whore for custody, not that she stands a chance, but ya never know. So yeah juss felt like getting that out, ugh.