i <3 you Kaitlin..
wow school has been the same thing for the past week and a half..i go to my classes..sit there..and then leave and go to the next class only to just sit there..i can't concentrate at all..but like lately i have been able to because i block everything out..and i was talking to Mrs. Clarke the guidence counselor and she was telling me it's gunna be like this for a while until reality hits..and wen it does i'm gunna know it..but it hasn't yet..so i just keep thinking good things and wen it's my time for everything to hit then it will..there are so many things that go thru my head all the time tho..like about a million "wat if's.."..and a bazillion things that i just wish would happen..like i wish i could go back in time..i wish everything was normal..i wish she would just walk right in that door right now..i wish i could just see her one more time..i wish i could hear her laugh just one more time..i wish she never met asshole hillbilly fuck face Travis..i wish she was still here..and no matter how much i wish and hope and pray the thing is that she's gone..and even tho i know i'm gunna see her again it's not soon enough for me! Danielle and Kaitlin are the only ones who really understand me..and Kaitlin i love you so much and i wish i could take the pain away..the only thing i can do is be here for you and you know i am..you 2 were my BESTfriends..we grew up together..and things are never gunna feel the same..but i don't want us to separate because of this..this should make us closer..i <3 you Kaitlin! thanks for everything..