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lets see..I have some shit on my chest..and I want to get it off...man...I dont know what to do..our love is as strong as ever..but some how..thats not how I feel....its like he sucked me in..in the beginning...he cuddled all the time...and we made out..and we loved...but now its like its all over because we live together and we have been together for almost a year....11 months on sept.2nd....its not the same...he doesnt cuddle no more at night....all he does is put his hand on my lap when were watching movies and stuff...its not like it used to be...we make love like once every 3months...but its weird..because even tho everything has changed like that..I still know he loves me..by the things he does...but its like my mind and everything is telling me he doesnt anymore..when really he does..its all fucked up...like I know he does..because when I want him to..in public he will wear my thong underwear (hehe)..he lets me paint his nails and toe nails...RED...his pin number is the date he proposed...he comes and visits me at work all night..even when he works mornings and is super super tired....all that stuff he does..so I know he cares...but yet again..everything else stopped..which fucks up my mind and makes me think that he doesnt care....he doesnt cuddle..we dont make love..he doesnt touch and feel like he used to..he doesnt write love notes anymore...and I just dont know....the more and more I think about it..I think its me....he used to do everything...and now he just stopped..so maybe its my turn..but anyone who knows me,knows im not like that...i like the guy to take charge...but sometimes hes not like that...so maybe its me...who doesnt do anything anymore....but I dont know..im so confused...I dont know what to do.......I need advice....Im so lost in my own thoughts that I dont know whats going on anymore..I hate this feeling..........i hate it.