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Hey,
So, as you know, i never update this thing, mainly because i'm too lazy to even put my thoughts into words, but anyway.
Christmas wasn't too bad, yet it made me realise how boring it actually is for me now i'm older. Whatever happened to the excitement! It annoys me, it annoys me because i know i'm getting older, and in alot of ways i don't think i want that. Since my last post on here i think i've changed my opinions on things and i've become more aware of things that i need to take into consideration, or that i think i NEED to take into consideration.
I'm more confused than EVER about my sexuality at the moment. I mean i know i'm bi, yet i'm questioning myself whether i'm going to go one way or the other, or stay put in the middle. Not meaning to say i'll choose myself, but i'm hoping that something is just going to happen and it'll tell me. I've also realised i'm not such a great person as people say i am, i mean i know i'm kind and all that but there is things about me that i don't like at the moment. I'm selfish and inconsiderate. I don't trust people enough as i should and it doesn't do me any good. I'm going to learn to take people's advice more in the future.
I think there's one more thing, i seem to always wake up early, even though i don't need to, because i always think that time is going to go so quick that i'm going to miss out on things. It's stupid i know but it's like a fucking routine at the moment. It's strange right?
I just want to say thank you so much to my family. I love you so much and i don't appreciate you half as much as i should. Thank you for my presents and keeping me smiling. Bit of a shit thank you at the end there but you get my drift!
I hope you all had a great christmas.
Love xo
So, as you know, i never update this thing, mainly because i'm too lazy to even put my thoughts into words, but anyway.
Christmas wasn't too bad, yet it made me realise how boring it actually is for me now i'm older. Whatever happened to the excitement! It annoys me, it annoys me because i know i'm getting older, and in alot of ways i don't think i want that. Since my last post on here i think i've changed my opinions on things and i've become more aware of things that i need to take into consideration, or that i think i NEED to take into consideration.
I'm more confused than EVER about my sexuality at the moment. I mean i know i'm bi, yet i'm questioning myself whether i'm going to go one way or the other, or stay put in the middle. Not meaning to say i'll choose myself, but i'm hoping that something is just going to happen and it'll tell me. I've also realised i'm not such a great person as people say i am, i mean i know i'm kind and all that but there is things about me that i don't like at the moment. I'm selfish and inconsiderate. I don't trust people enough as i should and it doesn't do me any good. I'm going to learn to take people's advice more in the future.
I think there's one more thing, i seem to always wake up early, even though i don't need to, because i always think that time is going to go so quick that i'm going to miss out on things. It's stupid i know but it's like a fucking routine at the moment. It's strange right?
I just want to say thank you so much to my family. I love you so much and i don't appreciate you half as much as i should. Thank you for my presents and keeping me smiling. Bit of a shit thank you at the end there but you get my drift!
I hope you all had a great christmas.
Love xo