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I'm going to stop being so judgemental.
I think I've already managed to do a fairly good job at it.
I guess its not even that I'm going to be less judgemental.
Everyone is judgemental to an extent...I'm just not going to say any of it out loud.
I'm just tired of it. All those things you do will still really bother me but I'm done saying stuff about it.
I think I do it because I feel attacked sometimes. Everyone says things to everyone else but when I get my dosing..
I freak and I get super self concious and I feel trapped and upset
So I do it back...ten-fold?
Revenge?
But I'm done with that.
The people I care most about don't mind me for who I am.
The people I don't care about...well I'm just going to leave them alone.
Literally.
Even though that'll be hard.
YOU'RE EVERYWHERE.
oihwelkgdufosdifhasdklfjsdlfhaoijfdskhfosdifu
That was my frustration towards you. And I think I threw a few slaps in the face there as well.
...Its really only you. You bother me and get me in a bad mood.
Blame.
But I do think thats partially the problem..its not exactly a great way to start the day.
I need to find my ipod so I can listen to some calming musing when you're around.
Because honsetly...
I'm just done being a bitch in general.
Maybe being nicer will help me be okay with myself.
Maybe it'll break this wall down.
But it's thick.
You've all made it thick.
I've made it thick.
i don't deal with my problems anymore
I take their force and throw them somewhere else.
Let someone else worry about that burden.
I can't deal with it.
But I'm going to force myself to.
I need to.
Or it'll never get better.
After this year I'll keep touch with those who matter.
And the rest will float away.
Hopefully soon.
I need a good start-over.
I want to tell you I don't like you.
I think it would be easier to ignore you.
You're so selfish.
You're so oblivious
You're so naive.
You're so loud.
So many things that I don't like.
In one person.
Its testing my non existant patience.
What I had is worn thin.
I'm nice to who I WANT to be nice too.
Really...there are only 6 people that I do that to.
and only to one of them on a regular basis.
kay im done
I think I've already managed to do a fairly good job at it.
I guess its not even that I'm going to be less judgemental.
Everyone is judgemental to an extent...I'm just not going to say any of it out loud.
I'm just tired of it. All those things you do will still really bother me but I'm done saying stuff about it.
I think I do it because I feel attacked sometimes. Everyone says things to everyone else but when I get my dosing..
I freak and I get super self concious and I feel trapped and upset
So I do it back...ten-fold?
Revenge?
But I'm done with that.
The people I care most about don't mind me for who I am.
The people I don't care about...well I'm just going to leave them alone.
Literally.
Even though that'll be hard.
YOU'RE EVERYWHERE.
oihwelkgdufosdifhasdklfjsdlfhaoijfdskhfosdifu
That was my frustration towards you. And I think I threw a few slaps in the face there as well.
...Its really only you. You bother me and get me in a bad mood.
Blame.
But I do think thats partially the problem..its not exactly a great way to start the day.
I need to find my ipod so I can listen to some calming musing when you're around.
Because honsetly...
I'm just done being a bitch in general.
Maybe being nicer will help me be okay with myself.
Maybe it'll break this wall down.
But it's thick.
You've all made it thick.
I've made it thick.
i don't deal with my problems anymore
I take their force and throw them somewhere else.
Let someone else worry about that burden.
I can't deal with it.
But I'm going to force myself to.
I need to.
Or it'll never get better.
After this year I'll keep touch with those who matter.
And the rest will float away.
Hopefully soon.
I need a good start-over.
I want to tell you I don't like you.
I think it would be easier to ignore you.
You're so selfish.
You're so oblivious
You're so naive.
You're so loud.
So many things that I don't like.
In one person.
Its testing my non existant patience.
What I had is worn thin.
I'm nice to who I WANT to be nice too.
Really...there are only 6 people that I do that to.
and only to one of them on a regular basis.
kay im done