KILL ME !!!

[xxkathleenxx]

WELL ok let's see you all kno that the GUY i want is way older. God i would give ANYTHING for him. I swear. Well almost anything. I mean come on i kno he probably thinks i'm a annoying bitch...i'm used to that. Well lately i've been feeling pretty damn sucky. I went to the play last night it was ummm weird put it that way. I still love that GUY i've decided since you all kno who i'm talking about u should just realize who it is...If you dont kno who it is just ask i guess. I feel like i should be shot or stabbed or just plain killed. I kno i'm gonna die sooner or later i just hope it's SOONER !I'm pretty sad...I have to many memories of past experiences...they piss me off. Robin's party is today so aint my brother's . I wanna just cry so badly!!!!I cant cry though crying sux it's a waste of tme. I have no feelings anymore....That's just how i feel i feel as though EVERYTHING is gonna crash down.Billy seems to not really like me that much anymore same witht he guy i love. Well love suxz it makes me do stupid shiznat. How can i have so many "feelings" for someone i never met i dont even KNOW if i really talk to them and yea. I'm confused.
Well i g2g peace...love u...i love *him*,
~~KAT