Its been a while
I'm finally updating again, but unfortunately its only because I'm in a "state" and writing is the only thing I can think to do to clear my head. Which may not even help... Me and billy are fighting, yet again!
I feel like he's never there for me when I need him. Last night we were talking and I was telling him that i needed him, crying, and he still completely fucking blew me off. Then he would come back with "I love you" how can he possibly love me if he don't even give a fuck if I'm ok? He doesn't wanna be there for me, yet I have to be there for him. Its getting to be way too much to fucking handle anymore. I can't just break up with him, I don't wanna break up. I really love him more than anything I just don't know what to do. We've been together for a really really long time. I love him. I need help.
julzy
I feel like he's never there for me when I need him. Last night we were talking and I was telling him that i needed him, crying, and he still completely fucking blew me off. Then he would come back with "I love you" how can he possibly love me if he don't even give a fuck if I'm ok? He doesn't wanna be there for me, yet I have to be there for him. Its getting to be way too much to fucking handle anymore. I can't just break up with him, I don't wanna break up. I really love him more than anything I just don't know what to do. We've been together for a really really long time. I love him. I need help.
julzy