Re cap
Well my computer was gone for alil while but i was bale to use johns computer a few times but i will recap everything now.
Saturday SO saturday was the third.....i was supposed to be heading up to Maine with john to be with a friend. We were ganna head up at 11 after i got out of work. Well i was excited cuz me and my friend hadnt hung out in a while and well we usually have fun.....neways i had metioned it at work and the girls are so sweet that i work with... they switched up there schedule and erin who had gooten in at 1 said shed stay till 11 for me so i could get out at 8 and leave early for maine. I was so physched until john and i tried to call our friend to get the directions.... she never picked up her phone... we deciced her phone was on silence because that is what she does when she is with her bf......but as the hours went by it just seemed scetchy....john left messages...and well we decided to just gp tp his house and chill since we wasted out whole nite trying ot get a hold of our friend. So we went to his house and went to bed.....the next morning we tried a few times to get ahold of her again but...now her phone was off.......now it is tuesday and i still have not heard a word from her..........i guess people should have some advise.....dont invite some one somewhere and then when you realize you dont want them to come ignore them....and maybe there is an explanation, but we are good friends and a call would have been reasonable and john and i wouldnt have cared what the reason was....but what ever.....
Sunday we woke up kinda early and we decided not to go to the cook out in CT with the fam but to chill with Rob and the fellas and Alexis and Lindsey. But john and i had some fun, went to bickfords, whjere we had the worst service, and then we took a shower ;-)......then we headed to meet up with jake. ... on a side note to this week end john and i have been well our relationship has been kinda rocky....but its ok now....and while with jake it got a lil rockier, john and i talked through typing on his labtop, we are ok but he has a good amount of work to make things the way they were....but I STILL LOVE YOU BABY my heart is just alota bit fragile rite now...newas jake went to pick up sam and rob and alexis, berga lindsey jake, and mark were the peopel we spent o ut forth with.....we bbqed...well john did and drank.....it was nice to have friends around when i really needed thme.... even though none of them no it...just being with them on the forth helped me out so much! with everything going on with john.....and the maine thing being such a bust i was really hurting...and they really helped! I LOVE YOU GUYS!
Monday i got to wake up in johns arms once again......=) we got home about noonish and just chilled at my house till about three....the rents me and john headed to meet up with the gpa and my uncle...we all went to RI for dinner at a place called sticky fingers. LAst time i was there i witnessed the biggest fire in Providence history....when we got there the fire trucks were heading to the fire and when we were leaving after dinner it was still going....we followed a fire truck and saw it....neways...everyone got the all you can eat bbq ribs and chicken.... i got fajitas...lol i gatta be different. then when we were back in MA john and i rented Barber 2 and went to his house and watched it. we did some much needed cuddling!
I am really hoping that things start to get better though ... i really hate being depressed and so sad.....i hate it for all the crying i do ...and because as it goes it gets harder and harder to fake my happiness...and i kno you sad not to fake it john....but sometimes you gatta put up a front especially when your fragile and easily broken.....cuz rite now i feel like i and everything could shater at ne moment.