tales of fear` - Jealousy
Fear's a shapelifter; it takes upon various forms.
It's the foundation of everything;
anxiety;
loneliness;
betrayal;
failure;
insecurities;
jealousy;
pain;
each fear, linked to the next - fear, the ultimate fault of humanity?
I start with Jealousy - the crudest of all.
It's the raw, pricking feeling of the heart which describes this the best.
Would it be easier if we closed off the heart?
Cutting off the ultimate source of the fear?
But that will sever us off the weak ties we hold with "humanity" wouldn't it?
But having an open heart, we're leaving ourselves exposed to the manipulative tools of jealousy.
Tools of which we may come later on in life to regret, and to atone for
We fear loss, defeat, abandonment -
hence we become jealous of things around us ; envious of their forms
To rid one of fear, one must understand.
But how is it possible to understand human emotion in its crudest form?
Each and everytime fear creeps in; one attempts to put up their guard -
"i don't care" one says
yet it's impossible to shut out those pricking feelings; because it is impossible to deny such overwhelming feelings
Therefore, Jealousy - is to be feared
It cannot be tamed; cannot be restrained
Jealousy: ever present; ever plaguing
like Fear.
like Life.
xoxo J.