so here we go again
So can I just say that today super sucked? Checked out my myspace today before I headed to work. Got a lovely message from my suppose best guy friends girlfriend pretty much telling me how crappy of a friend he really is. When you tell someone your not gonna share with the rest of the world something they have told you don’t you normal stick to that. And who lies and makes there “best friend” look like a complete idiot. Hey thanks for making my day. Do I look like someone who just makes shit up? I know I can be a bitch but am not that fucked up. It’s so refreshing to know that I really can’t count on or trust much of anyone anymore. I thought I left all my fucked up friends in high school apparently I was wrong people are still trying to screw me over. I thought I was a pretty good friend there when ever he called, listen to him when he needed someone, tried to help him and give advice, drove all the way to fucking Sacramento to pick him because he asked me to, I was there when no one else was. I cared for this guy like he was my brother only better. It fucking hurts to know that he would pull some shit like this and pretty much just not give a fuck because that’s pretty much how I feel. Because he was pretty much fucking speech less when I called to tell him how I feel. Nor have I heard from him since. Wow what a great friendship that was. I can tell he is real torn up inside about it. When I called him today I know I sound totally pissed and angry and yes I was but I actually almost got teary eyed about it. It’s been awhile since I’ve actually cried about something. I didn’t know how much our friendship meant to me until that moment. It actually hurt to have to say goodbye to a friend that I cared that much about. But fuck look how you made me look. How could you lie to me and betray me like that. I would never do anything to hurt you. But I guess I should just move on and chop it up as a loss seeing how you have done the same thing.