Intense

[xxjasettexx]

Where do I begin? I feel so lost, like everything I once knew has been taken from me and now I am left here empty. All my hopes and dreams invested in someone for so long and for what? To be treated like I am nothing, to be told I am nothing; I am a loser and I never have a good enough job, or I never do anything good enough. It sucks to think you are going to spend the rest of your life with someone, and then realize that you grew apart long ago; and he isnt the guy I fell in love with, because that guy would not have done what he did. I miss that old feeling and how he used to be; and now it is just over. I guess he really doesnt care, which hurts me; but I think it will make me stronger. I want to be happy again, I want to surround myself with people who actually care about me.

I wish this never happened,why did I waste so much time in such a bad situation? I am stupid. I dont want to live my moms life, and I promised myself I wouldnt. so here I am starting all over from nothing. I feel so alone, I miss my dog. I get to see him every day. I miss my life.