"And, all it was, was something beautiful"

[xxjamesxx]

My baby is sick, and I can't do anything to make her feel better.
I know how she feels though, cause I felt that same way last year,
I believe it was last year. I remember waking up, and not being able
to really do anything. We had a show that night too, but we didn't make
it cause of me.

I'm really tired of going from job to job. I like my job now, well some times,
but that's how it's suppose to be, right? I'm good at it, but still need to learn
a-lot of things. Who would have thought being a waiter would take so much. Some times I
let little things get to me, and then my whole night, or day is in a mess. Then on-top
of that I work some crazy hours. I want to spend more time with Mandy, and get a band
together. I'm trying to make a resume, but it's not coming out to well, I really don't
know what to put. Mandy has one and I'm looking at hers, but still confused, and lost on
it all. I guess I don't have the best work history.

I feel so empty without music in my life. It's what really keeps me sane.
I feel myself getting more, and more edgy without it. It's my personal
therapy.

Well, that is really it. I'm going to try and write more often.