Do you love yourself, as much as anyone else?

[xxj_a_m_ixx]

That title, is now going to be my title for everything. I think Dylan is the only one that understands the meaning behind that one.

Well today, School...eh it was okay.

Got home...<3 Adam <3 came over. It was cool. We played Pool and of course, I'm a retard at pool and hes too nice and stuff and we just had a ball. I'm fairly entertaining I would

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[dirtylace37]

YEah, I'm a little slow on the uptake so this is a comment to the last entry, sorry to bring up all the shit inside it but this just has to be said....I fucking love an am always fucking here for you and if you ever fucking doubt that i'm going to ghetto beat you white ass..Ok, i'm done....love ya...sorry...ya know im here, right?

[xxj_a_m_ixx]

lol lillian, i know you're there. I love you lots! Thanx for the...umm...meaningful scary threatening comment. Always need one of those. *big smile*

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[fakethoseskies]

Ehem. Jamie. THANKS for forgetting me in your shoutouts once again, doesn't surprise me at all, but what the fuck, I honestly don't care anymore if you think about me or not, BECAUSE, I have more important issues to worry about, incase you didn't know this, but um.. your life isn't the worst life in the entire world. You still get to talk to "THe Guys" they actually accept you, and PLUS you atleast get to choose where you want to live. I had to go to rehab and a psych ward, I was gone for 40 fucking long ass days. I was in 2 hospitals mind you. I'm seriously considering walking my white ass to your house, grabbing you, and taking you to see a shrink, or go to an N.A meeting with me. N.A stands for NARCOTICS Anonymous. Cowering in a corner letting everything take over your life isn't helping you, you're either depressed wanting to end everything, or happy because you got to see "THe Guys". And I doubt that Dylan is the only one that understands that title. I for one, might have a good idea on what it's trying to tell you. Actually, I

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[fakethoseskies]

Jamie, don't forget.

I love you. <3 As long as you love yourself too.

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[xxj_a_m_ixx]

Kendra, I'd like you to know that the night I heard about you leaving, which i had to strangle out of Dylan because YOU never called to tell me or ne thing and he didn't think i was supose to know i cried. I cried alot. Because i love you and care for you. I thought about you each day you were gone and was always asking KYLE if he had heard when you were coming home, it was always "possibly next week" and i'd ask again. You have 3 pairs of clothes of mine, 1 of which is very important to me and i need it bak for it really isn't mine. My pants i love and my thong, yea, we wont go into that. But ne way i can get those bak, swing by ur g-mas if you give them to her or something?
I don't love myself, i never have because I don't care for myself as much as i care for anyone else. Its a thing. I don't feel like explaining it to you right now, for you have your set opinions and i'm just a heartless bitch.

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[wetxxxkisses]

Kendra no-one has forget about you, me myself i havent een forgotten about you. i mean i got to meet a new girl that i thought of a strate out bitch at first and actually began to like you. i was also worried along with many others while you were going through all this shit. JAMIE your not a heart-less bitch. i understand where your coming from on this whole i love others before myself. when lifes are hard you tend to forget about yours and worry about others and love them for theres. Kendra, i hope you havent forgotten about me in your world out there. i could always bring me and Jamie to come and visit you at your dads in loami, my cousin goes down there to see her dad so i could easily go down there and go to see you. I miss you, we did have a fun ass weekend before you left for this bullshyt. I think the whole thing was something to make yourself feel 2x as bad and go crazzi on jamie. that doesnt make nething better. you shouldnt have told her that she should go through that same bullshyt as you did. didnt you see yourself as

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[xxj_a_m_ixx]

i know this is a little out of context but Jessika, I love you alot, and I'm here for you no matter what. I know we have our moments and I've screwed up several different times over somethings but I love you soo much and I'm so happy I've gotten to become close to you and what not. Idk what to say with the whole Kendra thing. I'm sorry you cried. I love you and I am so giving u a hug when I see you again. Love you! *the sweetest kisses and hugs* love you girly. I'm here ne time you ever need ne thing and make sure you know that.

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[fakethoseskies]

I didn't drag her down with me. o.O wtf are you talkin' about Jessika. I was simply stating that she has to love herself!!! I mean c'mon now. All of these people love her and she doesn't love herself. And no, you're not a heartless bitch Jamie. >.< God damnit, now I feel like a bad person for stating something I believe in. I believe Jamie should love herself, and if I sounded like I was dragging her down with my problems, I'm sorry. We both have it bad, we just need to get our lives back on track a little bit. -.- And that would be awesome if you could come and see me, but the problem is, I can't have any contact with the people from Springfield outside of the internet. I love you Jessika and Jamie. <33 *mwuah*

Kendra.

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[xxj_a_m_ixx]

I'm sorry you can't have ne contact with ne of us outside of the internet, i think thats bit extreme but complaining about it won't help ne thing so i'm sorry. I have issues with loving myself, its harder to do then ne thing else because i've never done it and i don't know how? I've always been the good girl who did everything to make her daddi happy and not yell or ne thing, and then when he got mad, if not even at me, like at my lil brothers, I'd cry and hide while he screamed and hit and pushed them. I've always hid, and now that i'm not hideing ne more, a lot more issues are forming because I don't care if my daddi is happy ne more. I can't love myself because i've always been trained to help my dad love himself or something like that, I've always had to care for others before myself, not like i was forced, i was just brought up that way and I've never known ne thing different. Its hard to explain. I've been getting my life back on track since my dad and my run in, I've finally got something I want and have to obtain and i'm

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[wetxxxkisses]

i understood the fact that you were saying she has to love her self. Im with you on that part i just wasnt with you on the bringing her down wth you part, but now you explained that you werent trying to do that. but the whole you should go to N.A and shit like that wasnt kool.
i love you and jamie!!!!!<33333 kisses and hugs
and ohh yeah i can always say im from..?? lets see loami..lol