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so basically i feel like updating on everything.
i'm putting it behind a cut becuase it's going to be long.
SO BASICALLY, i haven't update in a while. it's not that i don't have the time it's just i don't feel the need to post what i do everyday. nothing against people that do though. :)
lately i've been in this horrible bad mood & i don't even know why. all i want to do is sleep. i don't even talk to anybody. i basically come home from school get something to eat & go to bed. today i think was the first time in a while that i actually truely laughed. i'm sick of this mood & i don't even know why i'm in it or how i'm supposed to 'get out of it'. hopefully something really good happens soon so i can be happy again.
i love my friends. lately it seems that everyone has been at eachothers throats though & i hate it. i love everyone thoughh & i know we all love eachother that's why we don't stay mad at eachother it's just a short thing. but still, we shouldn't all fight like we do. we're not even on our periods or nothing. wtf lol. this weekend is going to be fun though, i'm promising that. seriously girls let's make this year the best. it's the last one that we'll all be together. i think all of us need to get together sometime soon. even if some of us are fighting, i know that i can be mature enough to be put in a situation with others even if they can't.
so i realized today that i'm wasting over 200 dollars on one night. so i'm making that one night spectacular. my homecoming will be amazing, NOTHING will bring me down. i'm not wasting all this money on nothing. i'm a little upset that we don't have a limo but oh well we're all still going together & that's what matters. i'm not going to be able to go tanning for homecoming because i'm basically broke so i hope my dress doesn't look to bad. i think i'm going to put my self tanner on my legs though. & when jackie does my make up i'll just have her put some cover up on. HOMECOMING PACT OR WHATTTT ;)
i don't have a car & it sucks. who honestly crashes their car drunk driving. basically i'm a dumbass. & i have no job. so i'm a broke dumbass. i can't get a new car until i get a job but i can't have a job unless i have a car. it's a never ending cycle that i'm going to lose no matter what. i think i'm going to go apply to some more places & maybe pay someone to drive me to work when i have to. or i'll ask sanner or something when she can because i used to drive her all the time. i'm thinking i'll apply at chuck e cheese's they basically hire everyone that applies so atleast i'll have a job so i can start saving up some money for a new car ++ my parent's are helping me out a lot with this car. if anyone know's of any places that are hiring let me know please, i'm kind of desperate.
i never thought i'd ever say this but i miss my family. i miss my mom & sister so much it's terrible. i basically never see my little sister & i feel as though i'm missing out on her life/her growing up. i know that sounds really cheesy & dumb but it makes me want to cry. i talk to my mom almost everyday but idk, i think it might actually be better that i don't see her. i do miss her a lot though. don't get me wrong i LOVE living with colleen. it's amazing how we don't even fight or get sick of eachother. lol. & now that i live with colleen i barely fight with my mom or anything. but i do miss her & my sister. i miss my brother a lot as well. i'm definitely going to florida for christmas break. hopefully sanner can still come with me. <3
i don't really have anything else to say. this entry was basically pointless.
reminders for me.
thursday - find someone to drive me to moms salon to get my nails done & staying the night at brookes. [CALL GRANDMA ABOUT GETTING THE STUFF.]
friday - coll boo's birthday, not that i could forget. :*<3
saturday - parade/game with brooke & sanner ? .. have someone drive me to my grandma's so i can go get my moms truck for the night. hair appointment with sanner @ 3:30ish.
sunday - drive out to capac to switch cars with my mom. brookes comming along ?
i'm putting it behind a cut becuase it's going to be long.
SO BASICALLY, i haven't update in a while. it's not that i don't have the time it's just i don't feel the need to post what i do everyday. nothing against people that do though. :)
lately i've been in this horrible bad mood & i don't even know why. all i want to do is sleep. i don't even talk to anybody. i basically come home from school get something to eat & go to bed. today i think was the first time in a while that i actually truely laughed. i'm sick of this mood & i don't even know why i'm in it or how i'm supposed to 'get out of it'. hopefully something really good happens soon so i can be happy again.
i love my friends. lately it seems that everyone has been at eachothers throats though & i hate it. i love everyone thoughh & i know we all love eachother that's why we don't stay mad at eachother it's just a short thing. but still, we shouldn't all fight like we do. we're not even on our periods or nothing. wtf lol. this weekend is going to be fun though, i'm promising that. seriously girls let's make this year the best. it's the last one that we'll all be together. i think all of us need to get together sometime soon. even if some of us are fighting, i know that i can be mature enough to be put in a situation with others even if they can't.
so i realized today that i'm wasting over 200 dollars on one night. so i'm making that one night spectacular. my homecoming will be amazing, NOTHING will bring me down. i'm not wasting all this money on nothing. i'm a little upset that we don't have a limo but oh well we're all still going together & that's what matters. i'm not going to be able to go tanning for homecoming because i'm basically broke so i hope my dress doesn't look to bad. i think i'm going to put my self tanner on my legs though. & when jackie does my make up i'll just have her put some cover up on. HOMECOMING PACT OR WHATTTT ;)
i don't have a car & it sucks. who honestly crashes their car drunk driving. basically i'm a dumbass. & i have no job. so i'm a broke dumbass. i can't get a new car until i get a job but i can't have a job unless i have a car. it's a never ending cycle that i'm going to lose no matter what. i think i'm going to go apply to some more places & maybe pay someone to drive me to work when i have to. or i'll ask sanner or something when she can because i used to drive her all the time. i'm thinking i'll apply at chuck e cheese's they basically hire everyone that applies so atleast i'll have a job so i can start saving up some money for a new car ++ my parent's are helping me out a lot with this car. if anyone know's of any places that are hiring let me know please, i'm kind of desperate.
i never thought i'd ever say this but i miss my family. i miss my mom & sister so much it's terrible. i basically never see my little sister & i feel as though i'm missing out on her life/her growing up. i know that sounds really cheesy & dumb but it makes me want to cry. i talk to my mom almost everyday but idk, i think it might actually be better that i don't see her. i do miss her a lot though. don't get me wrong i LOVE living with colleen. it's amazing how we don't even fight or get sick of eachother. lol. & now that i live with colleen i barely fight with my mom or anything. but i do miss her & my sister. i miss my brother a lot as well. i'm definitely going to florida for christmas break. hopefully sanner can still come with me. <3
i don't really have anything else to say. this entry was basically pointless.
reminders for me.
thursday - find someone to drive me to moms salon to get my nails done & staying the night at brookes. [CALL GRANDMA ABOUT GETTING THE STUFF.]
friday - coll boo's birthday, not that i could forget. :*<3
saturday - parade/game with brooke & sanner ? .. have someone drive me to my grandma's so i can go get my moms truck for the night. hair appointment with sanner @ 3:30ish.
sunday - drive out to capac to switch cars with my mom. brookes comming along ?