hmm
Work 4-CL yesterday, it was soooo busy and crazy oh gosh! Ummm, have to do it again tonight...Caila and I will most likely talk about things because I am kind of aggravated with everything. Robin is working tonight, yay! I get to see him ummm...I am just frustrated with everything and having this happen just like makes me not want to try anymore and be like 'yeah well eff you nothing matters and everything turns to shit eventually.' ONE GOD DAMN THING THAT I WAS HAPPY WITH AND IT FUCKING IS DONE WITHIN A MATTER OF AN HOUR WHEN I DIDNT EFFING KNOW ABOUT IT! I GIVE UP!
so aggravated as you can tell.
Crystal my dear, you are such an amazing person and I dont want to do anything to hurt you thats why I was still hesitant about telling you. I know even though you say that you arent hurt I know that you are even if it is just a little. I love ya to death and nothing will change that, yes I wanted you to know like so badly but I also didnt want to hurt you and I was hoping it would just blow over in a way and you wouldnt have to know. I know you were kind of aggravated that I didnt tell you but im sorry, I have no excuses for not telling you. :/
EVERYTHING ELSE...FUCK IT I DONT EVEN WANT TO CARE ANYMORE! BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I CARE!
so aggravated as you can tell.
Crystal my dear, you are such an amazing person and I dont want to do anything to hurt you thats why I was still hesitant about telling you. I know even though you say that you arent hurt I know that you are even if it is just a little. I love ya to death and nothing will change that, yes I wanted you to know like so badly but I also didnt want to hurt you and I was hoping it would just blow over in a way and you wouldnt have to know. I know you were kind of aggravated that I didnt tell you but im sorry, I have no excuses for not telling you. :/
EVERYTHING ELSE...FUCK IT I DONT EVEN WANT TO CARE ANYMORE! BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I CARE!