My head spins.
I was reading something earlier from a friend's update. I'm just so shocked at what she's getting that I cried. It's her choice, her life, but when I think about it it kind of makes me sad alot. So I'll try not to think about it.
*sighs* I still want to have kids, at least...
In other news.
I really feel heartsick when I read some of the stuff on AL. I miss being close friends with some members. And it all was just shattered because of one stupid move. And I can't go back to being friends with them anymore as we used to be, and I don't know, I've been really emotional as of late (Periods suck).
And I have noone to talk to that I'm close to as of late either... Stephen's gone, Bee never posted her number for me, Oleander and Tony are gone, I'm stuck all by myself again and I can't even talk to Berrik for a smile anymore, and Berrik is like my best friend... And since I don't have internet at where I stay we don't even talk either... Oh, I just want to give up on everything. I just feel like shit.
Some good news tho; I don't feel ugly anymore. Whenever I do, I look in the mirror and go "I am beautiful, no matter what Vlad says."
Erm.
I mean anyone. What ANYONE says.
>_>
I need eHugs.
And has anyone noticed I've not been listening to music as of late?