i'll be your best kept secret and your biggest mistake....
my weekend sucked i was with my dad....we went down to st. louis, don't ask y cuz i'm not gunna tell you because i hate it, i was walking through the hotel, ( i do anything to get away from my dad) and i realized i get lonely so easily, i wanted more than anything to b with one of my friends at that moment...for someone, anyone that matter that is my friend to b there and keep me company. So much has just been locked up inside of me for so long...my dad just ruins my whole life, i can't even be a real kid, i fucking hate him, i want so bad for him to just leave me alone but he keeps saying he won't give up. Well ya know what dad, neither will i, no matter what he fucking does to me to make it worse i'm not gunna give in cuz i know that is exactly what he wants, cuz he's a fucking power happy bastard, he knows he can tell me to do something and i have to do it because if i don't i can get punished severely by him for something so little...and yet my sisters can get away with so much...i seriously cannot even stand to look at him any more... he doesn't control my life and no matter how much he thinks he can and will, he can't and won't