you..

[xxiamnoonexx]

seeing you stand there really hurt.
then you had to talk to me.
im sorry i didn't say anything.
I felt like i was seeing a ghost.
My heart was beating to fast and my throat had closed up.

I hope everything went well with your family and the hurricane too.
Sorry.

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[sorrowincursive]

I felt awful that night... but i couldnt walk away without saying anything. I didn't want this to be such a big deal... im sorry that we're so different now, but that doesn't mean that I think badly of you. i honestly don't have any bad feelings towards you...
I still love you - it's your call.

[xxiamnoonexx]

my call...my call..
I love you.. But i cant talk to you or see you.
It was a big deal.. to me atleast..
You didn't get the e-mail, i did.

I cant keep hurting you. So i think it would be best if it just stayed the way it is. That way i cant hurt you..

If you want back on my journal, i wont mind. I think it's kind of unfair that i read yours and you cant read mine.
I still wanna know if things are okay with you, and if you're life is going well..

i wish things could be different, but they cant..

sorry.. <3

[sorrowincursive]

thats cool - whatever you want to do is fine with me.
don't worry about the journal thing though... i dont need to read yours. it's all pretty highschool anyway - getting kicked off friend's lists. lets just leave it the way it is.

[xxiamnoonexx]

oookay whatever floats your boat..

getting kicked off of friends list is pretty highschool eh? I could really lash back on that one, seeing as i didn't feel you as a friend anymore and still dont..
Why would i want someone who said such harsh words and the things you said know about whats going on?
blah..
this isn't even worth it anymore..
laters.

[sorrowincursive]

answer your own question - you're the one that offered. I'm not going to beg you to be my friend... though reading about your life must be awesome since your journal is so exclusive.
I actually thought you wanted to clean this mess up.... why did you bother posting anything about that night if you wanted to keep it this way?

[sorrowincursive]

nevermind - dont answer that.

[xxiamnoonexx]

the reason i posted was I just wanted to make sure you knew that i cared enough to know if your family was alright..
Im not expecting you to beg me to be your friend.. Like i said, i cant.
You hurt me way to much with that letter.. I cried for fucking hours over that..
im sorry I even bothered...
i commented earlier, but i deleted it.. It was pretty fucked up. Im sorry.. Which you'll probably get in your e-mail.. but oh well..
whatever..