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as much as i love everything being planned and set...life never goes the way i expect it to.
im a second semester senior who just took the SAT for the third time. yes yes that's right.
and just in case me dropping a calculator and coming back 2 mins late to our testing room might fuck me over, im taking the ACT in two weeks.
i never imagined i would be doing all this crap again.
but i have learned a lot. sorry to make this all 7th heaven-ish.
but seriously, I have.
I've realized that i can be a really mean person without realizing it. which is scary. but im starting to recognize it since more people are drawing it to my attention. since ive been so focused on myself lately, on retaking all these tests and perfecting my grades for deferring colleges, i rarely notice how im treating the people i care most about. I felt really terrible about it for a while and then I decided to stop being over emotional and just DO something about it. so im trying really hard to remind everyone that I really appreciate them, especially now that I'm thrown into these unexpected circumstances.
I'm starting to calm down i think. Whatever happens, where ever i end up next year, all places have the same amount of potential. its what i make of it.
people at school need to stop obsessing over carolina. its getting really anoyying.
the end.