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hey guys whats up? i havent updated recently because of 2 things
1. apparently there was this huge mistake on our fone bill that acquired a 3000$ charge! its bogus but its still a pain in the ass, my dad was on the fone with bellsouth for like 4 hours trying to get it fixed. So they dropped the charges by like 2700$ ! it was crazyy.. and they cant reconnect us until thursday,
(*so you must be wondering, how is she updating then? -- well i put aol up in my room so i have aol. wow is it weird, i havent had aol for like 4 years.. its crazyy.. ireally do like it. but it can be a major pain in the ass.. lol.. )
2. i havent been able to like function at all anyway, on friday i was in a car accident before school and it sucked.. my friend and i were on our way back to her house after having an sga breakfast and someone hit us in the back and the car started spinning and it jumped across the median and we hit another car.. no one was really hurt but i was so freaked out b/c if the light had changed to green before we crossed the median i would have been the one who got seriously hurt or even killed cuz it was my side that was facing the oncoming traffic... i was so freaked.. anyway so we are sitting outside of dennys for like an hour or two talking to the police and w/e and they asked me if iw as hurt, but i told them no cuz i really wasnt, so then i stayed home on friday because i was soo shooken up.. it was crazyy.. and then saturday during the day i was fine but saturday night my back started to hurt and its just gone all down hill from there.. i was wondering why i was in soo much pain a whole day after the accident and everyone told me because my body had been in shock and wouldnt let me feel the pain.. but i seriously fucked up my back b/c i could barely walk and i have this huge bruise on my leg and a bump.. ekk.. my back STILL hurts, but i got some medicine (painkiller and muscle relaxer) so i should be fine..
its kind of unnerving this whole thing, even AFTEr its over b/c i know the inevitable.. and its that i will have nightmares and stuff and it sucks.. up until like yesterday everytime i blinked or closed my eyes all i could see was the crash, and when i was laying down and resting all i could do was feel how my body was just thrashed around.. it was insane.. i still think about it quite frequently but not as often.. its still really scary.. i still cant get the thought out of my mind that thank god that car was there (that we hit) b/c if it wasnt then i would have been the one to get pummled by a 45+ mph car careening towards us.. i felt guilty about that, you know thankning god that the car was there but i realized that its better b/c NO one got hurt.. i dont know its kind of hard to explain and im kinda freaking myself out. so im going to go..
ttyl homiezzz