Screwed Up
Yesterday I let something get to me and actually self-injured. I just needed some kind of distraction...it seemed like the only option at the time. Although it wasn't too bad, I still feel guilty about it. Well, I feel guilty about everything I do, but even more so because I disappointed myself when I did that. I'm supposed to be getting better and stopping crap like that. I'm also supposed to be "eating right" and not obsessing over every little thing I put in my mouth--that's probably not going to happen for a while. Everyone expects so much from me, but maybe I just can't do it all. I don't want to anyone that because then I'd be disappointing everyone.
I just don't think I can handle disappointing everyone right now. I think I'm already messing up enough.
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