Not a Good Time....
Right now I want to SI, purge, or something. It would make me feel like I have power over some part of my life, like I have control. I don't think I do at this point. I'm just doing things simply because I have to, not because they make me happy or because I want to. I wish I didn't have so much crap to do all the time. Maybe if I didn't I could start getting better, and maybe I wouldn't be so stressed out all the time. Maybe I could actually sleep better and not feel so tired. Maybe I could relax for once...which seems impossible right now.
I don't even want to deal with all this right now. I want to sleep.