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[xxhazy]

i've been denying to myself all day that i'm not upset.
so i tried to forget about it.
by cleaning...uncontrollably.
my room is sparking.
the bathroom is spotless.
nothing is cluttered.
(i still have to do the basement, i wanna have a party.)
but i still feel sad :(

i need a distraction and i'll be fine.
i guess.
hopefully.

Christmas.