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hey.get me out of this hell. she won't stop getting more and more hurtful. it doesn't sting that much anymore, we've all gotten used to it, i guess. after treatment, after all those cancer cells died, a part of her soul (if souls exist) must have died as well. she is heartless, and,i hate to say it, i'm glad that they're all starting to exclude me. at least they have realized that all this time i've been self sufficient. i truly only rely on myself and music to keep me going.
but, if they would just put down the bottle long enough to say goodbye, or good job. or show up to something important, like,i don't know, their own kid's house for a holiday? coffee,perhaps. not that it really matters. it's jut a fantasy from years ago.
on another note, trying to reconnect with people sucks. i'm going to see the first orange in around a month, and i'm still trying to get ahold of the fourth blue. fuck,it's difficult to connect with people who have suddenly,and unintentionally,become famous. everybody wants in your tight jeans, and i wish they'd leave you alone. so, when i talk to you, you wouldn't dismiss me as irrelevant before we could reconnect. before you get to know me again. before we talk and enjoy life. i'm taking the hard way, but i'll get there, blue.i promise.
i know i'm not on here a lot anymore, it's hard to get back into the swing of after ten years. also none of my friends are on here anymore.so. ...yeah..
see you later, doods.
love,kelsey
but, if they would just put down the bottle long enough to say goodbye, or good job. or show up to something important, like,i don't know, their own kid's house for a holiday? coffee,perhaps. not that it really matters. it's jut a fantasy from years ago.
on another note, trying to reconnect with people sucks. i'm going to see the first orange in around a month, and i'm still trying to get ahold of the fourth blue. fuck,it's difficult to connect with people who have suddenly,and unintentionally,become famous. everybody wants in your tight jeans, and i wish they'd leave you alone. so, when i talk to you, you wouldn't dismiss me as irrelevant before we could reconnect. before you get to know me again. before we talk and enjoy life. i'm taking the hard way, but i'll get there, blue.i promise.
i know i'm not on here a lot anymore, it's hard to get back into the swing of after ten years. also none of my friends are on here anymore.so. ...yeah..
see you later, doods.
love,kelsey