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[xxhatedslayerxx]

i can honestly say i'm emotionally unbalanced. today was a rather good day in the wake of last night. hung out with olivia and kate on the great lawn and had a photo shoot. pretty much did absolutely nothing except for be anxious and check my email every ten seconds.

kerri fran and i went to justin's apartment and drank. he kept talking about how bad he wanted to fuck ray and how cute he was and it just pissed me off because he was being serious. you don't say shit like that. you don't talk about wanting to have sex with someone who just royally fucked with one of your friends. it really left me in a shitty mood.

when we got back to the dorms, i literally cried for over too hours. i have so much on my plate right now i don't know if i can handle it. i couldn't cry over him last night because i was way too stoned, and tonight i couldn't stop. not only that, it was fran's last night. it was so hard because she is literally one of my best friends in the entire world. i have no clue what i'm going to do without her.

i honestly feel completely hopeless right now. i'm so glad i'm going back to westchester... maybe those bitches will be able to cheer me up.