AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
god i hate the bull shit.
today was...i dunno. worst most stressful morning ever....
i brought ajs mom lunch to thank her for getting me into this class...to find out that 'she hates me.'
still...
all ajs friends hate me and like...wont hang out with him if im there...which was made...completely clear.
and which sets me off a lot because ive tried to be nice to them...and i dont really know what suddenly went wrong.
ive cried like, 100 times today...which i guess i can do, since its my birthday.
i spent all afternoon trying to find one of those little mexican flag things for aj...since its mexican independence day...cuz i thought itd be cute.
frustrated and gave up...got him ice cream sandwiches and rasberry ice tea...since i figured thatd be a bigger hit.
hes not home, so...the ice cream sandwiches are melting on my counter.
i feel bad for steph because shes so sad and i cant help her.
i dunno whats gonna happen to my beautiful car.
everything is falling to shit...just like i knew it would.
and why cant people be more reasonable?
whatever. i suck. ill get over it eventually.
: To me, yOu're a very two faced person. And I say that becasue of Your actions. Thats what I think of yOu ok. Im not just saying that, Im being real with yOu. And its all fine by me, becasue Im not gonna be around for it
i...hate myself.
PoD- my mom. for once.
SoD- Glycerine.
today was...i dunno. worst most stressful morning ever....
i brought ajs mom lunch to thank her for getting me into this class...to find out that 'she hates me.'
still...
all ajs friends hate me and like...wont hang out with him if im there...which was made...completely clear.
and which sets me off a lot because ive tried to be nice to them...and i dont really know what suddenly went wrong.
ive cried like, 100 times today...which i guess i can do, since its my birthday.
i spent all afternoon trying to find one of those little mexican flag things for aj...since its mexican independence day...cuz i thought itd be cute.
frustrated and gave up...got him ice cream sandwiches and rasberry ice tea...since i figured thatd be a bigger hit.
hes not home, so...the ice cream sandwiches are melting on my counter.
i feel bad for steph because shes so sad and i cant help her.
i dunno whats gonna happen to my beautiful car.
everything is falling to shit...just like i knew it would.
and why cant people be more reasonable?
whatever. i suck. ill get over it eventually.
: To me, yOu're a very two faced person. And I say that becasue of Your actions. Thats what I think of yOu ok. Im not just saying that, Im being real with yOu. And its all fine by me, becasue Im not gonna be around for it
i...hate myself.
PoD- my mom. for once.
SoD- Glycerine.