....im waiting for you....
yeah..soo my computer is still all fucked up. it sucks. so i am over ducks right now...waiting for her to get home from school.
i havent been to my dads sence we went to court the last time, which was about a week and a half ago. i dont really want to tho. at court and everytime i talk to him on the fone he seems...well...not himself. he still seems really crazy to me. but then again he always did. but its different this time, becaue Nae is starting to see it to. the other day she was crying and telling my Mom and Collin how she is scard of him. she is scard of what he is going to do next (cause we all know there is more to come) and she is scard that she will turn out like him. i know that non of us are because we are aware of it...ya know. i want to go and get some books on my dads condition and learn more about it. maybe i can get Nae to read some too...maybe if she understood it a bit more...she wouldnt be so scard.
Nae seems happier. i think her and my Mom are going to start getting along better, and i think she is finally going to give Dearborn Hights a chance. she has been getting out more and roller blading and stuff. which is a lot better then sleeping untill 4. to tell you the truth..i miss her. she is always over here...in this shit hole..(not meaning Ducks house..i mean Warren)..and when she comes back she acts like these shity ass people. (no offence to some..i dont mean all) but give her a few days away from all of her friends..and away from Earl..and she is back to normal. my little Nae again! im sorry..but im not the biggest fan of Earl. he just seems shady to me. he is 18, what does he want from a 15 year old? everytime i ask her if she hung out with him...like over the weekend or something..she is always like.."no..he was sleeping....so i called him back like an hour latter..and he was still sleeping" when everytime i am around here..i always see him with Dick...like always! if you ask me..it seems like he is advoiding her. he isnt the nicest person in the world either. he never wants to talk to my Mom. even after all those times we had to pick Nae up from his house...he never once came up to the car to interdouse himself...and everytime i try to talk...or atleast say hello to him...he just turns his head. i was in Mrs Kendalls class like everyday at the end of the year helping her move shit....if James heard me...and said hello..i know you heard me. hell i even felt a little bad for the kid when i was grading papers...so i gave him a few extra points. ohh well...he isnt my boyfriend..so he isnt really my problem. im just worried about Nae. i dont get to see her that offten...and i worry. i dont really know Earl...or some of her other friends...but they come off as shady...so i worry. thats my job..im her big sister...i love her..i miss her. i just dont want to watch her turn in to some white trash bimbo who stays in Warren for ever...because she thinks this is where her true friends are. GET OUT OF THE BOX NAE...trust me...you'll like it!
to tell you the truth...i was kinda happy when my dad did all that shit. i wanted people to see what he puts me through. i wanted to tell people everything. but when my chance came..i just froze..and cryed. it all wanted to come out.. but i couldnt say it. i was to much of a reck then. so i am going to right an email to all of my aunts..and tell them what a fuck up he is. and make them feel like shit. i want them to feel like shit for turning there backs on my mom..but to tell you the truth..she is better off. it just hurts to see them all helping him. they shouldnt be helping him...they should be helping me..and Nae..and my Mom! they never helped us. i feel weird going to them becaue i know that they are still going to invite him to parties..and i still have to see him on my vacation..and i will never get away from him. and that sucks. enough about this...ill tell them later.
do you know...that everytime your near..everybody else seems far away? so can you come and make them disapair? make them disapair and we can stay...
im confused about some things....i have to really sit down and think..
Joe came to my Mommy's house over the weekend. it was a lot of fun! we went and played PutPut! well not right away...we went to the driving range first. man i suck soo bad. he blew me right out of the water. i had to clue he could golf like that. this boy was hitting the 200 mark! i wasnt hitting anything...not even the ball! lol it was soooo funny...i know you have seen Happy Gilmore...so you know how he hits the ball all crazy and shit...well i tryed that and it worked. i got it to like 75ft. i was sooo happy! Joe tryed and he flung his stick off the back of the deck...and we were on top too...so it was really funny. after that we played PutPut! he won...by one point because he cheeted! that BASTARD!! he kept redoing his shots. ohh well...i let him win anyway. when we were all done with that..we went over to the batting cages. he hits soo funny...you just have to see it. stick to tennis babe! haha i love ya. we took the cutest pictures! i made him take them how tho because 1. he doesnt have any pics of us in his room. 2. if my Mom or Collin saw them i would never here the end of it...they just look for cute things like that to pick on me. and 3. he paid for them...it was only right. i had a really good time with him...we havent had a chance to have a day like that in a while. he was mad at me last night. cause i didnt come and see him...and i wont say i love you in front of my Mom. but she picks on me..i sware you people dont know..my Mom is crazy! haha jk. im sorry hunny....ill say i love you!
Nick..your a crazy mexican with a bad tan! haha... jeebus hoppin bunny fucks?...who says that? go cut some grass. your so silly. ok..you had to have a shot out in this...you have been making me laugh all morning!
go to this shit....