i hate computers....

[xxgemini13xx]

i had written the most i ever wrote. i decided to write my whole life's story in its entirety and i was just about done when my electricity went out and i lost it. everything. it was the first time i ever sat down and wrote out everything on my mind. every last one of my memories and past experiences and it is all gone. vanished just like that and there is no possibly way i can get it back. maybe its a sign. or maybe this apartment just suck ass. i really dont need anymore shit going wrong. its bad enough that the problems in my house have sky rocketed and im sick and the snow is costing me hours and money. i seriously wanted to just flat out stab my father and kill him and just watch him die. So much shit in such little time. well technically its always been like this except finally nothing was held back. i really hope my parent will finally split up and live their lives separately instead of basically killing each other by being together. My top priority has become my siblings. now more than ever, they come first before anything which means i will have to try to stay home more to see that they are doing ok. on the bright side, my sister got word that our offer on a house has been accepted and we might be moving soon. supposedly they're going to try to work things out now and see what happens. basically they're gonna try and stay together because of my siblings however from what i've observed, i doubt it will last. i seriously want them to separate. honestly, now i could care less about either of them. especially victor. i hate him. he is no longer my father. and i told him that. i flat out told him that he is dead to me and that from that day on i have no father. i dont need him. he is worthless to me. this now just means i have to try harder at everything and help my older sister. seriously if it wasn't for her, i would leave my house and never look back. im still pissed at the fact that i lost everything. i had seriously written a book. everything since i can remember. everything since 1990. 16 years written down and lost in a flash. i need to stop now. the more i think about it the more pissed i'll get.

p.s. i got my younger sibling playing ddr. new generation, here they come lol