hmm...
i dunno,
there are a few things on my mind which i cant really describe.
its like i have mixed feelings without actually feeling anything.
maybe its because of the fact that i've been "hurt" to the point i cant feel anymore pain?
or
maybe its because i've actually been in both scenarios.
either which way, i feel like i cant really like anyone anymore.
it's like i'll try and yea i'll act like yea he's madd cute and all and i'll flirt and stuff,
but like,
i feel like its pointless.
i'm not even really stressing it like i used to and i'm not really falling too deep for anyone.
its just,
i dunno.
maybe i see people's niceness as something else?
or maybe i dont see what's really there.
however,
who's to say its not there if its unknown territory?
it all goes back to the whole if a tree falls and no one hears it.
does that mean feelings arent really there if you dont talk about it?
i think some people are just scared that if they do talk about it, it will seem more real.
it's like they like to live in this fantasy world where they can escape and finally be who they want.
no rules, no guidelines,
no one to tell them no.
well to those, i say,
how will you ever know if you dont try?
yes it isn't always necessary to experience something but if you truly feel something,
why lie to yourself and push it to the side?
you only have one life. why not live it the way you want instead of living it the way you think other people think it should be.
i guess after i finally listened to myself, i realized how truly strong i am now and how i have changed mentally.
i no longer let the little petty shit take over.
what happens to a dream deferred?
it eventually explodes.
why not try to live it instead of letting it waste.
maybe thats just me,
or maybe i'm just blind.
bed time
~Luis
there are a few things on my mind which i cant really describe.
its like i have mixed feelings without actually feeling anything.
maybe its because of the fact that i've been "hurt" to the point i cant feel anymore pain?
or
maybe its because i've actually been in both scenarios.
either which way, i feel like i cant really like anyone anymore.
it's like i'll try and yea i'll act like yea he's madd cute and all and i'll flirt and stuff,
but like,
i feel like its pointless.
i'm not even really stressing it like i used to and i'm not really falling too deep for anyone.
its just,
i dunno.
maybe i see people's niceness as something else?
or maybe i dont see what's really there.
however,
who's to say its not there if its unknown territory?
it all goes back to the whole if a tree falls and no one hears it.
does that mean feelings arent really there if you dont talk about it?
i think some people are just scared that if they do talk about it, it will seem more real.
it's like they like to live in this fantasy world where they can escape and finally be who they want.
no rules, no guidelines,
no one to tell them no.
well to those, i say,
how will you ever know if you dont try?
yes it isn't always necessary to experience something but if you truly feel something,
why lie to yourself and push it to the side?
you only have one life. why not live it the way you want instead of living it the way you think other people think it should be.
i guess after i finally listened to myself, i realized how truly strong i am now and how i have changed mentally.
i no longer let the little petty shit take over.
what happens to a dream deferred?
it eventually explodes.
why not try to live it instead of letting it waste.
maybe thats just me,
or maybe i'm just blind.
bed time
~Luis