just dont wanna live here with him anymore
I am so tired of this shit..i was all happy and gonna write an entry when i got home about how these college guys were checkign me out when i was out with my mom or how at a track meet last week i had a skirt on and this kid was like damn hunnie u r fine..and like 30 guys said hey and ur hott to me..made me feel good..
..but no see my dad is a fucking jackass..he refused to let me drive bc he said my behavior at the concert was like a child..wtf? i sat and watched and cheered for frank. jesus i dont see him supporting him. i love my brother no matter what happens and we fight and everything sure..but he is one person i know i will be able to count on later down the road...and i dont see my dad in my life very long. so he can fuck off bc he doesnt give a damn about me and frank
and then i opened my door to spit my gum out and he thought i got out(i wanted to so bad and just run) and he was like do i have everyone and i said unfortunatly..and thats where it all started.he yelled at me the whole car ride home and i didnt even fucking do n e thing..its getting so bad with my dad, we hate each other. I hate this shit. I told him he was gay and he said ur grounded and i laughed and said whatever i hate you and i will not listen to you. ANd my entire family is screaming at each other...all this because i yelled for frank at the concert..i told him god forbid i yell for my brother bc he did an excellent job on the saxophone but u wouldnt know anything bc u never go to our stuff...
i hate him so much...None of you even understand the kind of shit he says to me..he makes me feel like i am just dirt to be walked on. It's kind of like i dont even have a father and the one man who was like my father..oh yeah he is dead with the others on the god damn list i have...
i was freaking out in the car...i threw my phone and Jenny saw. I got home, threw my phone across the room...the cover smashed to pieces..i threw my hat..these stuffed animals..i dont want any of it..i hate him i want him gone..i told him that. he wants me gone too. wow thats a new one. i was out in the thunder and lightning..did he care? of course not.
they all wonder why i have so many problems..well its this god damn house..i wanna just run........................
and just when i thought the scars were erasing...more will come
"i dont wanna be me" great song...
my phone is making random noises...its broken.
..but no see my dad is a fucking jackass..he refused to let me drive bc he said my behavior at the concert was like a child..wtf? i sat and watched and cheered for frank. jesus i dont see him supporting him. i love my brother no matter what happens and we fight and everything sure..but he is one person i know i will be able to count on later down the road...and i dont see my dad in my life very long. so he can fuck off bc he doesnt give a damn about me and frank
and then i opened my door to spit my gum out and he thought i got out(i wanted to so bad and just run) and he was like do i have everyone and i said unfortunatly..and thats where it all started.he yelled at me the whole car ride home and i didnt even fucking do n e thing..its getting so bad with my dad, we hate each other. I hate this shit. I told him he was gay and he said ur grounded and i laughed and said whatever i hate you and i will not listen to you. ANd my entire family is screaming at each other...all this because i yelled for frank at the concert..i told him god forbid i yell for my brother bc he did an excellent job on the saxophone but u wouldnt know anything bc u never go to our stuff...
i hate him so much...None of you even understand the kind of shit he says to me..he makes me feel like i am just dirt to be walked on. It's kind of like i dont even have a father and the one man who was like my father..oh yeah he is dead with the others on the god damn list i have...
i was freaking out in the car...i threw my phone and Jenny saw. I got home, threw my phone across the room...the cover smashed to pieces..i threw my hat..these stuffed animals..i dont want any of it..i hate him i want him gone..i told him that. he wants me gone too. wow thats a new one. i was out in the thunder and lightning..did he care? of course not.
they all wonder why i have so many problems..well its this god damn house..i wanna just run........................
and just when i thought the scars were erasing...more will come
"i dont wanna be me" great song...
my phone is making random noises...its broken.