Cycles
I'm so down right now! I think it's really the stress of studying for tests, two of which are going to be tomorrow back to back... followed by a long ass boring biology lab. I hate Mondays! To be honest, I can't even bring myself to study. I swear, my mind goes in cycles. There are time periods where I'm feeling confident and unstoppable. I can talk to any girl, I can shake off any insult, I just feel good. And there are moments like now where I'm feeling vulnerable, insecure, worried, stressed, and slightly down! Also, there are times where I'm feeling wholesome and moral. No alcohol for me, no bad thoughts about girls, not much cussing; I just wanna have some fun hanging out with friends and playing games or something. I'm in that mindset right now. Maybe it's not the best for college... I dunno. I don't really even know what the hell I'm saying right now, I'm so stressed. I guess I'm just trying to say my personality goes in circles: just when I think I'm over something or I've changed, it comes back to haunt me and bite me in the ass, and I'm back where I started.