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So having a journal everyone can read..good or bad? there are days when I think it'd be better to not say what's on my mind because, well, I don't really know if I want everyone reading it, which is sort of the point of these things. There is nothing I can tell you that would give you the whole story, which is what you need to understand how i'm feeling. It's all censored because of the other things you DON'T know, that I wouldn't explain earlier..So you can read what's vague and have little to no understanding for what i'm saying..your choice. There is probably only one person who I tell everything, whether we are close or not, because I trust her, and I know no matter what I tell her, she won't think ANY different of me, though if I were talking about someone else, she may think otherwise. It's not that I just trust her, it's that she understands probably better than anyone else, whether she's been through it or not. She could predict the things that were going to happen, and decide not to tell me because of her better judgment. I almost can't think of a time when she hasn't known ahead of time how things were going to happen/work out. Then there is that stuff that I don't care if people know, even though it may seem like not the best thing for people to find out. It's not that I don't care what people think, it's that, that is what I do, which is part of who I am. Frisco is great for things like this..people know a few things ABOUT you, then suddenly, they think they know YOU. The things I do, they aren't WHO I AM, they are a minor detail of the list of things that make up me. Sometimes I wonder what people think of me, like just how much they assume, then I realise no matter WHAT I do, nothing will really change how much people will assume. shit is the way it is. I got out of my writing flow right about a sentance up. This was just a random fit of typing, and I got distracted and now I don't know where to go with it, so I'm stopping.