hmmmm.........
It is weird to just sit and think about thinking. It is also weird to sit and be alone. The feeling that consume your thoughts and the cold feeling you get in your chest. It feels like the life I pictured isn't what I am living and you are a very diffrent person than what you thoght you were. I don't know who I am, yet all day I could tell you who I am. I thougth that I was close to God, then living out on my own I haven't put forth that effort, but I will argue you to the ground if you tell me my beliefs are false, I will fight when called for and love and live and pay my bills on time and go to work even though I would love to burn the place to the ground. I feel like something is missing, I mentioned it to one of my dear friends and she mentioned bringing a child into the world, I laughed and dismised the idea and thought how riding horses filled that void and now I have all that time. I should pick up that guitar and learn to play. I love to sing. I have a strong voice. With lessons and practice it is just one moe thing I can say I can do................ I haven't talked to Aj in a while he must be really caught up in life. MISS YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..............................MUah!!!!!!!!