NIght/Day
Man, I can feel the tension in my house as it grows thicker as the night grows darker. Someones not working, and the other doesn't really either. But no money is coming in, and I'm left to feel it all. It's serious enough for me to worry about, as the fact that I may come home one weekend and not have a home to come to. The thoughts of quiting and getting new jobs and what not scares me when it comes to my family. On top of that My real parents (who I dont live with) have decided its time to amansipate me, and totaly give up on me. They think child support for me isn't worth it, and they would rather give up every right they have with me. It's total bull shit, and in my opion they should have to pay it, just becuase neither of them where there for me when I was younger. I guess I should have expected it from them?
I can't wait to go back to school, Purdue is seriously calling my name right now. Solitude would be a litte treat right now. A small house and 3 people, who don't want to be in each others space, is some times difficult when there isn't a place to excape to. I know I share my room at school, but I can still get away. Besides a bed would feel amzing right now!!! The couch is getting a little old...I have thought about sleeping on the floor, but that seems to be a bit cold.
So much is going on in my mind about the past few days. I dont know what to do. Stay back and wait, go for one, leave them all, to even trust them? I have been told I let one get to close, and that I shouldn't trust the other. Such confusion! I dont know whehter to turn left or right, or to just sit on my ass and let it all pass by me. I dont know if I should grab hold and run wild with it, or stand by and wait for it to grab me.
Sleep soon for a weary body and mind that has past the 'tween' and is lagging behind.