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wow right now i'm so freaking depressed that i dont even know what to do with myself....i mean for the most part today was a really good day and i should be really happy but one thing happened that killed it all... iggy was very persistant from what i could see about wanting marko to go to grottos with her liz and kelsy i think and then when she found out he was hanging out with me it was like omg nope.... like almost as if she didn twant to be around me so much that idk.... it just made me feel like no one really wants to be around me... i mean i can barley ever pull apaul away from will long enough to get her to answer her phone and well the only people i hang out with is marko .... which i love him dearly but i dont want all of our friends to ditch him to just cuz he's the only one who wants to tlak to me.... i mean i try calling or texting people to hang and no one ever answers for me... and by people i mean liz and iggy... cuz i have a very short friends list..... i just idk .... i guess i'm sad cuz i feel like i shouldnt hang otu with marko cuz he's gonna loose iggy and liz cuz he hangs out with me to much and they odnt wanna hang out with me. and i mean zach seems to always be with liz latley and if she isnt wanting to see me well then even though we are trying ot be friends i wont be able to be friends with him either..... i just feel like i'lm being fazed out i guess is a good way to put it and that really realy upsets me and i'm not sure why but ya.... idk what to do or what i did.... and i currently am puking cuz i got car sick with the heat/humidity and being put in t he back of a jeep.... god i just feel like suck worthless shit....