im on my own & im off to new jersey
yo.
i dont know.
if you've been hanging out with tristin then i don't really feel the need to be hanging out with you.
it's only going to hurt me more if i hang out with you then find out that you're still hanging out with her.
it blows my mind brandon, you say you hate liars yet you continue to hangout with her and be her friend.
kind of hypocritical if i do say so myself.
but whatever floats your boat.
i want you to know that i wish you the best in whatever you choose to do with your life.
i wish you nothing but happiness.
it's hurting me a little bit to write you this, but it happens.
i want you to experience that amazing, true, real happiness, the kind that everyone deserves to experience.
i don't think i can give that to you.
well, at least thats the feeling i'm getting from you.
i want you to know that i never stopped loving you before, and in the future i will continue to hold a spot in my heart for you.
somewhere along the lines i think you were right, our love wasn't anything like a romance novel but one of these days i may try and put it all down on paper.
maybe then it will give me a sense of where i went wrong and what i did to deserve this.
you will always continue to be my number one, i've known you for six very long years.
they were filled with ups and downs but in all honesty, what friendship or relationship isn't.
so maybe this isn't goodbye forever, just goodbye for now.
if i run into you eventually then maybe we'll have the knowledge that it probably is fate, but as of right now i think it would be better for me to let you go.
this is one of the hardest things i've ever, ever had to write and don't you think that for one minute as im sitting her typing this out im not thinking about erasing it all and going back to bed.
but i think that since my fingers keep typing and my brain keeps thinking, then maybe it's for a reason that im sending this to you.
i want you to know that i loved you with all my heart, and never once had i ever thought of cheating on you or would i ever.
i just think that since you keep hanging out with the girl who broke us apart then it's finally time for me to walk away.
i told you last night how i felt about the whole situation and you made it seem like you wanted to work it out, i don't think by you hanging out with her is going to help the situation at all.
when you find that right girl brandon i hope she makes you so happy you can't breathe without her, you can't smile because you're so happy you've found her.
i want you to experience a love so undying and so pure that it takes everything you have in you. emotionally, physically, and most importantly mentally.
i want you happy, and im so sorry that i couldn't make you happy the way i want you to be happy.
i said i wanted you in my life and i do, don't get me wrong, i want you in my life. i want to be friends with you. but i honestly don't think i can be friends with you while you're friends with her.
you know how i feel about her and by you being friends with her it's like digging the knife that's in my back a little bit deeper everytime i hear you've hung out with her.
i don't need that.
you can call me selfish for writing this to you, you can call it anything you want. over reacting, crazy, emotional - i dont care.
i just think i finally needed to get this out to you and it's made me feel better now that i have.
just remember i want you happy, so live life like it's going out of style.
love like you've never loved before.
most importantly enjoy life.
everytime you think about us and what we had i hope you smile, i had good times with you and i wouldn't change it for the world.
you've made me a better person in ways you'll never know and for that i thank you.
i honestly and sincerly hope that i've shown you something about a relationship as well.
maybe we could both say that we've grown as a person.
if you still wanted to hang out, im not going to ditch you, im leaving you the option.
it'll be your choice after reading this wether or not you want to come down and spend a night here.
i dont think it will change my opinion, but you never know.
if you try brandon, maybe.
but i really honestly can't be friends with you if you're friends with her. thats pretty much what it comes down to, unfortunately.
i can understand if you pick her, thats okay.
im a strong enough person that i can deal with that.
but i wouldn't pick a liar (when its been proven shes a liar) over someone i spent a year and a half with anyday.
but thats me, not you.
anyways, enough.
i love you, but im off to bed.
have a good evening brandon, i want you to email me or message me back with what's going on.
i'd like to be filled in.
thank you.
kate.
i dont know.
if you've been hanging out with tristin then i don't really feel the need to be hanging out with you.
it's only going to hurt me more if i hang out with you then find out that you're still hanging out with her.
it blows my mind brandon, you say you hate liars yet you continue to hangout with her and be her friend.
kind of hypocritical if i do say so myself.
but whatever floats your boat.
i want you to know that i wish you the best in whatever you choose to do with your life.
i wish you nothing but happiness.
it's hurting me a little bit to write you this, but it happens.
i want you to experience that amazing, true, real happiness, the kind that everyone deserves to experience.
i don't think i can give that to you.
well, at least thats the feeling i'm getting from you.
i want you to know that i never stopped loving you before, and in the future i will continue to hold a spot in my heart for you.
somewhere along the lines i think you were right, our love wasn't anything like a romance novel but one of these days i may try and put it all down on paper.
maybe then it will give me a sense of where i went wrong and what i did to deserve this.
you will always continue to be my number one, i've known you for six very long years.
they were filled with ups and downs but in all honesty, what friendship or relationship isn't.
so maybe this isn't goodbye forever, just goodbye for now.
if i run into you eventually then maybe we'll have the knowledge that it probably is fate, but as of right now i think it would be better for me to let you go.
this is one of the hardest things i've ever, ever had to write and don't you think that for one minute as im sitting her typing this out im not thinking about erasing it all and going back to bed.
but i think that since my fingers keep typing and my brain keeps thinking, then maybe it's for a reason that im sending this to you.
i want you to know that i loved you with all my heart, and never once had i ever thought of cheating on you or would i ever.
i just think that since you keep hanging out with the girl who broke us apart then it's finally time for me to walk away.
i told you last night how i felt about the whole situation and you made it seem like you wanted to work it out, i don't think by you hanging out with her is going to help the situation at all.
when you find that right girl brandon i hope she makes you so happy you can't breathe without her, you can't smile because you're so happy you've found her.
i want you to experience a love so undying and so pure that it takes everything you have in you. emotionally, physically, and most importantly mentally.
i want you happy, and im so sorry that i couldn't make you happy the way i want you to be happy.
i said i wanted you in my life and i do, don't get me wrong, i want you in my life. i want to be friends with you. but i honestly don't think i can be friends with you while you're friends with her.
you know how i feel about her and by you being friends with her it's like digging the knife that's in my back a little bit deeper everytime i hear you've hung out with her.
i don't need that.
you can call me selfish for writing this to you, you can call it anything you want. over reacting, crazy, emotional - i dont care.
i just think i finally needed to get this out to you and it's made me feel better now that i have.
just remember i want you happy, so live life like it's going out of style.
love like you've never loved before.
most importantly enjoy life.
everytime you think about us and what we had i hope you smile, i had good times with you and i wouldn't change it for the world.
you've made me a better person in ways you'll never know and for that i thank you.
i honestly and sincerly hope that i've shown you something about a relationship as well.
maybe we could both say that we've grown as a person.
if you still wanted to hang out, im not going to ditch you, im leaving you the option.
it'll be your choice after reading this wether or not you want to come down and spend a night here.
i dont think it will change my opinion, but you never know.
if you try brandon, maybe.
but i really honestly can't be friends with you if you're friends with her. thats pretty much what it comes down to, unfortunately.
i can understand if you pick her, thats okay.
im a strong enough person that i can deal with that.
but i wouldn't pick a liar (when its been proven shes a liar) over someone i spent a year and a half with anyday.
but thats me, not you.
anyways, enough.
i love you, but im off to bed.
have a good evening brandon, i want you to email me or message me back with what's going on.
i'd like to be filled in.
thank you.
kate.