im in the middle of breakdown screaming your name.
i love you with all my heart. although at times it may seem that i blow things out of porportion and i make incorrect assumptions, i love you and at this very minute, would give anything to be back with you. don't think for one minute that i've given up or moved on from you because this time i don't think it's physically or emotionally possible. the year and a half we spent together was amazing, it had it's up's and down's, more up's than down's which is awesome.
i gave so much of me to you i think that if i gave anymore i may not be a complete person anymore. you inhabited my mind and took over my heart. sometimes i feel that maybe my morals and ethics are fighting a losing battle with my heart, and i don't always know if that is a good thing. i hope and pray that someday, somehow we can work this out.
i want you to know that no matter how far apart we are or how far we travel from each other you will never become just another notch in the belt. even if i become another notch to you, i don't mind, i just deep down want you to know that you are, and always will be everything to me. from the minute i fall asleep to the second i wake up. you were always loved no matter what when i was with you, and my heart was completely filled with every emotion every made especially for you. i was made for you. i don't know right now if you feel the same for me, but you tell me you do.
i miss laying in bed beside you and watching movies with you for almost 24 hours straight. i miss never getting drunk with you or having a party with you. you were the best thing that stepped into my life, and i can only hope that this time it doesn't end the way things end up before, and you know exactly what im talking about. i know i'm young to be saying this, and you've said it before too, that we could always picture us together in the end. i want that, i almost need it.
i've realized this past month that i don't need you to breathe and i will wake up tomorrow with, or without you. unfortunately if it's without you, it'll be one of those never ending days that seem to go on and on forever and never really have an ending. i still have a lot to experience in my life and i want you there by my side.
i can understand that after all of this is said and done that you don't want anything to do with me anymore, but i deserve at least a little bit of credit. i am trying. im trying so hard brandon, regardless of how late it is i still call you and talk to you, which is more than i can say for some people. i may sound a little bitter sometimes, but i think i have at least a little bit of right to. the situation is only made so much more complicated by little incondesent things - you know what i'm hinting at.
i can't lie to you and tell you that i wasn't hurt even in the slightest way when you said that you were going to ottawa for a party and not coming here. i was a little bit offended that you can make the time to go get drunk and not come visit but i guess it's all in priorites. i really want you to come down here, i think it would be a lot of fun. different towns means different things and it could be better here, sort of.
i suppose at the end of this i want you to know that when i said i missed you i want you to know that i do miss you, and mean every word i've ever once said to you.
i love you, always.
i gave so much of me to you i think that if i gave anymore i may not be a complete person anymore. you inhabited my mind and took over my heart. sometimes i feel that maybe my morals and ethics are fighting a losing battle with my heart, and i don't always know if that is a good thing. i hope and pray that someday, somehow we can work this out.
i want you to know that no matter how far apart we are or how far we travel from each other you will never become just another notch in the belt. even if i become another notch to you, i don't mind, i just deep down want you to know that you are, and always will be everything to me. from the minute i fall asleep to the second i wake up. you were always loved no matter what when i was with you, and my heart was completely filled with every emotion every made especially for you. i was made for you. i don't know right now if you feel the same for me, but you tell me you do.
i miss laying in bed beside you and watching movies with you for almost 24 hours straight. i miss never getting drunk with you or having a party with you. you were the best thing that stepped into my life, and i can only hope that this time it doesn't end the way things end up before, and you know exactly what im talking about. i know i'm young to be saying this, and you've said it before too, that we could always picture us together in the end. i want that, i almost need it.
i've realized this past month that i don't need you to breathe and i will wake up tomorrow with, or without you. unfortunately if it's without you, it'll be one of those never ending days that seem to go on and on forever and never really have an ending. i still have a lot to experience in my life and i want you there by my side.
i can understand that after all of this is said and done that you don't want anything to do with me anymore, but i deserve at least a little bit of credit. i am trying. im trying so hard brandon, regardless of how late it is i still call you and talk to you, which is more than i can say for some people. i may sound a little bitter sometimes, but i think i have at least a little bit of right to. the situation is only made so much more complicated by little incondesent things - you know what i'm hinting at.
i can't lie to you and tell you that i wasn't hurt even in the slightest way when you said that you were going to ottawa for a party and not coming here. i was a little bit offended that you can make the time to go get drunk and not come visit but i guess it's all in priorites. i really want you to come down here, i think it would be a lot of fun. different towns means different things and it could be better here, sort of.
i suppose at the end of this i want you to know that when i said i missed you i want you to know that i do miss you, and mean every word i've ever once said to you.
i love you, always.