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OMG...I can't believe how much of a loser I am! I mean come on..who sits on the computer looking at old friends myspace and seeing how much fun they have. I stopped myself from crying a few times. I know..LOSER! I didn't start crying today until I found out that my best friend had to move 45 mins away from me. I know that might not sound far, but I don't have a job now to keep driving out there. She doesn't have a job or car! I broke up with Q Saturday at my cousins wedding because I'm sick of him trying to control me! Now everyone is gone! I hate myself! Why did I have to give all my time to Q when I had friends? (crying now...good job Becky!)
I was (still am) going redo my bedroom this weekend cause I wanted to get back together with some old friends and just have everyone come over..fat chance of that happening. Stephenie's gone. Ashley would come, but she's the only besides Steph I'm getting along with. I'm so mad and angry! Then I look at Carley's myspace and I notice cussing from her! Where did that come from? She's too good to be letting herself get down. What do I know..nothing. Maybe she's happy being like that.
Well, at least one thing has happened that made me feel good. Since I'm single two guys want to hang out with me. They are old friends, but still kinda good looking! That's it though. Well, at least writing this made me feel a little better.
I was (still am) going redo my bedroom this weekend cause I wanted to get back together with some old friends and just have everyone come over..fat chance of that happening. Stephenie's gone. Ashley would come, but she's the only besides Steph I'm getting along with. I'm so mad and angry! Then I look at Carley's myspace and I notice cussing from her! Where did that come from? She's too good to be letting herself get down. What do I know..nothing. Maybe she's happy being like that.
Well, at least one thing has happened that made me feel good. Since I'm single two guys want to hang out with me. They are old friends, but still kinda good looking! That's it though. Well, at least writing this made me feel a little better.