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I hate having sad entries, butyou can't change how you feel...
I was just going through some old friends journals. I miss having "friends"...
That might be hard to understand, but I feel like I don't have friends anymore that I can call up to hang out with. My best firend is in college and is only home on the weekends. Q's my only best friend/boyfriend that I can hang out with. I love him to death, but it's not the same with having a good ol'girlfriend to chill with. Even when I do actually think about calling someone...I'm so far away from them that it would be so odd to be with them. Even Stephenie has her room mate she's always with. Then she gets upset with me for always hanging out with Q when she's home. Well, I feel like he's all I have. Sometimes it's hard for me to drop him for the day. That might even be hard for her to understand, but he's always there for me.
I miss my job. When I look back to think about everything I wish I didn't walk out. I was just so fed up! I hope I can find another one I enjoy and pays good soon. I think getting out of the house more would make me feel better.
I don't even care if people read this anymore. It just helps with dealing with issues I guess.
I was just going through some old friends journals. I miss having "friends"...
That might be hard to understand, but I feel like I don't have friends anymore that I can call up to hang out with. My best firend is in college and is only home on the weekends. Q's my only best friend/boyfriend that I can hang out with. I love him to death, but it's not the same with having a good ol'girlfriend to chill with. Even when I do actually think about calling someone...I'm so far away from them that it would be so odd to be with them. Even Stephenie has her room mate she's always with. Then she gets upset with me for always hanging out with Q when she's home. Well, I feel like he's all I have. Sometimes it's hard for me to drop him for the day. That might even be hard for her to understand, but he's always there for me.
I miss my job. When I look back to think about everything I wish I didn't walk out. I was just so fed up! I hope I can find another one I enjoy and pays good soon. I think getting out of the house more would make me feel better.
I don't even care if people read this anymore. It just helps with dealing with issues I guess.