oh what a day...
drove two hours to see my dad today.
I love him ... despite everything I love him a lot and had missed him. He got me guitar hero 5. Now, I'm swoonin as I play to all the good tunage on that one.
it was good to see both sides of my family. It grew this year. Two step bothers. A step mom a step dad. I love it. So much love.
this christmas i made so many people smile and happy by my handmade gifts. It was a great feeling to say the least. It all started with that sainthood reps show and making derrick and the boys happy. Just by a lil carepackage. I'll never forget that I think.... I just like seeing others happy way before I see myself happy.
It's wierd sometimes when I think about how much I have grown this year. It's strange but good.
I've been really thinking lately and kinda proud of myself.... I used to still text "him" on holidays just because that's how I am...but sadly he never cared enough, not even enough to say fuck you or anything. I stopped early on with july 4th and finally stopped texting on holidays i didnt' on thanksgiving or christmas.... this was a big deal. Finally my big heart turned off that part of my heart that still cared for him in a way. i was over him, but still cared like i always do. sometimes I care too much for people who don't give a damn about me. Me not texting him was finally my wakeup call that I have completely moved on in my life. I will always remember some things.... but at the endo f the day that chapter has officially closed. You really can't give someone your caring nature if they aren't willing to even appreciate it. So instead I'm giving all my love to my friends and family who deserve it. It feels great to be in the place in my life.
i'm ready for new things. Possibly moving to the east coast
and finally starting my venue up.
i'm really excited.
i'm just happy to make others happy and be around people who appreciate my love.
today was great. I love my family and friends and am proud of how far I have come this year as cliche as that sounds.
I love him ... despite everything I love him a lot and had missed him. He got me guitar hero 5. Now, I'm swoonin as I play to all the good tunage on that one.
it was good to see both sides of my family. It grew this year. Two step bothers. A step mom a step dad. I love it. So much love.
this christmas i made so many people smile and happy by my handmade gifts. It was a great feeling to say the least. It all started with that sainthood reps show and making derrick and the boys happy. Just by a lil carepackage. I'll never forget that I think.... I just like seeing others happy way before I see myself happy.
It's wierd sometimes when I think about how much I have grown this year. It's strange but good.
I've been really thinking lately and kinda proud of myself.... I used to still text "him" on holidays just because that's how I am...but sadly he never cared enough, not even enough to say fuck you or anything. I stopped early on with july 4th and finally stopped texting on holidays i didnt' on thanksgiving or christmas.... this was a big deal. Finally my big heart turned off that part of my heart that still cared for him in a way. i was over him, but still cared like i always do. sometimes I care too much for people who don't give a damn about me. Me not texting him was finally my wakeup call that I have completely moved on in my life. I will always remember some things.... but at the endo f the day that chapter has officially closed. You really can't give someone your caring nature if they aren't willing to even appreciate it. So instead I'm giving all my love to my friends and family who deserve it. It feels great to be in the place in my life.
i'm ready for new things. Possibly moving to the east coast
and finally starting my venue up.
i'm really excited.
i'm just happy to make others happy and be around people who appreciate my love.
today was great. I love my family and friends and am proud of how far I have come this year as cliche as that sounds.