Why do I have such a person as my mother?
She tries to lower my self esteem everytime she even talks to me. She'll put me down in some way. She tries to ruin my future as well. She is forcing me to move with her up North. She is doing this by "Oh, if you don't come up with us, I am not going to help you will college." She's forcing my boyfriend to stay.
But today, she just killed me.
I got into the stupidest arguement with her, she was yelling that I walked into her room with shoes on. Then she like started to nag on me for everything. Then, she said "You only act like that because that Jessie is in your head! Everytime you are with him you have no respect for me. Maybe an older guy is not going to work out with you since you are very immature. You are not to see him or talk to him ever again. If I catch you with him, I am sending you to a mental hospital." (keep in mind that my dad is 13 years older then my mother)
I just want to stop breathing. I can't stop crying if my life depended on it. I am typing this right before school and I don't even know how I am going to last the day there.
A couple of weeks ago I had to see a doctor to get a physical for school. Though when she was examining me she said I was severely depressed. Since my mom was in the room, she said it was Jessie. She has no idea that it's her.
It just kills me because I was in a very serious relationship with him. Like, he has never treated me badly (except that time that he was a litte irresponable, but he seriously made up for that), I mean, he has never even gotten into an arguement with me the whole time we've been going out. He's not just my boyfriend but my best friend. Now, I've lost him.
But today, she just killed me.
I got into the stupidest arguement with her, she was yelling that I walked into her room with shoes on. Then she like started to nag on me for everything. Then, she said "You only act like that because that Jessie is in your head! Everytime you are with him you have no respect for me. Maybe an older guy is not going to work out with you since you are very immature. You are not to see him or talk to him ever again. If I catch you with him, I am sending you to a mental hospital." (keep in mind that my dad is 13 years older then my mother)
I just want to stop breathing. I can't stop crying if my life depended on it. I am typing this right before school and I don't even know how I am going to last the day there.
A couple of weeks ago I had to see a doctor to get a physical for school. Though when she was examining me she said I was severely depressed. Since my mom was in the room, she said it was Jessie. She has no idea that it's her.
It just kills me because I was in a very serious relationship with him. Like, he has never treated me badly (except that time that he was a litte irresponable, but he seriously made up for that), I mean, he has never even gotten into an arguement with me the whole time we've been going out. He's not just my boyfriend but my best friend. Now, I've lost him.