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i dont have a best friend. i just have alot of good friends. but i have no rock. no person who will always be there and i think im missing out on something big.
summers almost over. and what did i do with it? nothing at all. and its true that your friends arent forever. when school ends you wont talk to pretty much any of them anymore. when school ended did i reallty think i was gonna spend the entire summer with ron raflaksi? i barely even knew the kid. and meagen, well i didnt expect that either. and the people i expected to hang out with i havent. none of them. they were "such good friends" in and after school but now their nothing.
and everyones leaving and what the fuck am i supposed to do? ill be working 5-6 days a week and going to school for 4 but i mean i still want to see people and go have fun when i get off work. but who am i gonna do it with? rons the only one left and even though hes a super good friend i want someone else. i think after everyone leaves ill be calling one person everyday. my recent call list is just gonna read:
ROCKET
ROCKET
ROCKET
HOME
ROCKET
ROCKET
ROCKET
ROCKET
ROCKET
and i dont want people to leave cause ill miss them so fucking much. i wont see meagen for 3 months! and ive seen her pretty much everyday this summer. its almost game over and im glad everyones going off to the school they want and on to do great things but im selfish, and i want them to stay here forever. i dunno it just hit me that in a week and a few days i wont have any friends and its pretty scary but mostly just sad. this is gonna be a fucked up 3 months :\
summers almost over. and what did i do with it? nothing at all. and its true that your friends arent forever. when school ends you wont talk to pretty much any of them anymore. when school ended did i reallty think i was gonna spend the entire summer with ron raflaksi? i barely even knew the kid. and meagen, well i didnt expect that either. and the people i expected to hang out with i havent. none of them. they were "such good friends" in and after school but now their nothing.
and everyones leaving and what the fuck am i supposed to do? ill be working 5-6 days a week and going to school for 4 but i mean i still want to see people and go have fun when i get off work. but who am i gonna do it with? rons the only one left and even though hes a super good friend i want someone else. i think after everyone leaves ill be calling one person everyday. my recent call list is just gonna read:
ROCKET
ROCKET
ROCKET
HOME
ROCKET
ROCKET
ROCKET
ROCKET
ROCKET
and i dont want people to leave cause ill miss them so fucking much. i wont see meagen for 3 months! and ive seen her pretty much everyday this summer. its almost game over and im glad everyones going off to the school they want and on to do great things but im selfish, and i want them to stay here forever. i dunno it just hit me that in a week and a few days i wont have any friends and its pretty scary but mostly just sad. this is gonna be a fucked up 3 months :\