when your world comes crashing down...

[xxemptydreamxx]

I made a break for it.
i got going while the going was good.
as i was dreaming of a world so far back in my mind,
i fast forwarded to the present
and i hated what i saw.
i had to do something for me.
i wasn't enjoying the scenario of what my current life showed me.
so i fast forwarded more and saw where this path would take me.
i decided i couldn't possibly hate myself anymore,
or hate my situation.
i had to do something about it. i had to take control of my life, i had to stop complaining, i had to stop sacraficing myself.
i ended it,
i'm not sure how i feel.
but i know that something had to change.
i hate change.
i really do i want everything to stay the same but every one to be happy.
and sadly whatever is controlling ourlives won't let us all be happy at the same time.
but this time it was different.
i'm not sure.
i'm never sure.

i need clarity.
get me some wine.