writing down random buzzed thoughts
i hate feeling like time and life are passing me by. I sit here watching the clock ticking and i just feel really anxious. that's really the only way to put it. i know i'm living and i know that i'm making what i can of whats given and presented to me. But if i were to die tonight, would i really feel like i've done all i can. that i've had an impact on someone? why does it always feel like i'm waiting. I'm not even sure what i'm waiting for i'm just simply waiting. I'm either waiting for something to become obvious to me, like my purpose or whats "planned" for me. If there is a god which, i'm seriously doubting, then does it already know where my life is leading me? does it have it all figured out for me and is it just waiting for me to fit the pieces together.
I think i'm missing something.
this summer has been grand, and i'm sad to see it go. but where do i go from here? do i just become part of it? sometimes, it seems like i'm just going through the steps, but there not leading anywhere.
again, i think i'm missing something.
question: Does it ever occur to you that your body/soul is taking you somewhere but if you asked yourself where you were going you would have no idea? ex. have you ever been so groggy like in school that your not even sure which classes are where or when but you just wind up there? i do. alot actually.
I was taught something this week. you can't ever get anything if you don't ask for it outloud, and make it clear what you want. Ask and you shall receive. very important.
kjjhsfuuiyer. to all this. it's all just a puzzle, and i can't even put a big bird one together.
I think i'm missing something.
this summer has been grand, and i'm sad to see it go. but where do i go from here? do i just become part of it? sometimes, it seems like i'm just going through the steps, but there not leading anywhere.
again, i think i'm missing something.
question: Does it ever occur to you that your body/soul is taking you somewhere but if you asked yourself where you were going you would have no idea? ex. have you ever been so groggy like in school that your not even sure which classes are where or when but you just wind up there? i do. alot actually.
I was taught something this week. you can't ever get anything if you don't ask for it outloud, and make it clear what you want. Ask and you shall receive. very important.
kjjhsfuuiyer. to all this. it's all just a puzzle, and i can't even put a big bird one together.