pwned.
do you ever get that feeeling of being in a really bad mood but, you cant really explain why? like, i suddenly want to hit someone or cry, im not sure which and i cant even give you a reason.
the people i care about the most (my TRUE friends) make me so sick. all they do is drive around aimlessly, skip school, smoke pot and drink. once in while its ok but, all the time is lame. there all such fucking slackers yet im the one being all stressed out because of my grades. i dont think its possible to have school, work and a social life for me, i have problems balancing my time.
IM NEVER GOING TO DRIVE BC MY DAD IS A DOUCHE BAG.
ive fallen so behind in school..i have 2 reports, 1 project, and 1 take home test all do within the next week and i havent started any onf them. i got back my history test today, i got a fucking 70. took FOUR tests out of eight classes today english, sociology, algebra 2 and journalism), i did shitty on all of them. i hate this,either im hanging out wiht my slacker friends and being ridiculed because we have different priorities in life or my "smart" honors friends make me feel like im not smart enough. truth is, i dont think i am smart enough but, whatever.
its like, i have all of these high expectations for myself but..im just so average. i was never that girl who had alot of friends(although i kno that has nothing to do with reality but, still), or the girl who was athletic, or the girl who got good grades, im just....average. average people are usuallyt he ones that end up being lower middle class miserable people and..the idea was to break away from that, not to live the rest of my life like that.ha
i have to pay for PSATs on tuesday. and FUCK...i needed the money for my project acceleration credits by tomorrow, i guess thats not gonna happen, im sorry i dont have $180 rihgt now.
the guy situation sucks. not even that im lonely, just that i want to ne alone and i dont want to hurt people. im so fuking confused, things never workt he way there supposed to.
i have to be fucking bipolar or somehthing. i go 2 weeks being the happiest person and then suddenly, its over..
the people i care about the most (my TRUE friends) make me so sick. all they do is drive around aimlessly, skip school, smoke pot and drink. once in while its ok but, all the time is lame. there all such fucking slackers yet im the one being all stressed out because of my grades. i dont think its possible to have school, work and a social life for me, i have problems balancing my time.
IM NEVER GOING TO DRIVE BC MY DAD IS A DOUCHE BAG.
ive fallen so behind in school..i have 2 reports, 1 project, and 1 take home test all do within the next week and i havent started any onf them. i got back my history test today, i got a fucking 70. took FOUR tests out of eight classes today english, sociology, algebra 2 and journalism), i did shitty on all of them. i hate this,either im hanging out wiht my slacker friends and being ridiculed because we have different priorities in life or my "smart" honors friends make me feel like im not smart enough. truth is, i dont think i am smart enough but, whatever.
its like, i have all of these high expectations for myself but..im just so average. i was never that girl who had alot of friends(although i kno that has nothing to do with reality but, still), or the girl who was athletic, or the girl who got good grades, im just....average. average people are usuallyt he ones that end up being lower middle class miserable people and..the idea was to break away from that, not to live the rest of my life like that.ha
i have to pay for PSATs on tuesday. and FUCK...i needed the money for my project acceleration credits by tomorrow, i guess thats not gonna happen, im sorry i dont have $180 rihgt now.
the guy situation sucks. not even that im lonely, just that i want to ne alone and i dont want to hurt people. im so fuking confused, things never workt he way there supposed to.
i have to be fucking bipolar or somehthing. i go 2 weeks being the happiest person and then suddenly, its over..