DRama for your mama.
Well once again i haven't updated in her for awhile. Well lifes been pretty good besides some drama like always. I almost got into a fight at school with some chick it's kinda funny because she's the one making it worse i'm just trying to live my life and the reason she wants to fight me is because i'm talking to her ex that impreganated her. Yeah kinda sounds bad but it's not all that bad i mean i think i'm really starting to like this guy. The bad thing is though i've cheated on him four times and i don't know why the first time i'm glad it happend but the other times were super stupid it's like i can't resist even if i try. It sucks and i don't know what to do i'm fighting for this guy with his ex but in the back i'm cheating on him anyways and it's stupid I know i should stop but i just don't know how. I really wanna be with this guy and i guess i'm afraid too be hurt because i'm scared to get close to anybody anymore because i always end up heartbroken but this guy so far has showed me that he cares kinda. Well the kinda sounds bad doesn't it well it's because we can't do much at school because of the drama but then we kiss anyways but not like i want and we never hold hands at school and usually when were together he's walking with his friends then with me i don't know maybe he's just doing that while the drama goes on but hopefully we'll see. On valentines he said he's taking me out to dinner and a movie and supposbly he's giving me a ring and a teddy bear but i hope it's true because i've never really had a real valentines. I'm soo confused though of what to get him i know a bottle of cologne but what else? any suggestions. Well the other part of the drama is my friend is moving all the way to the east side and I'm probably not going to see her for awhile which sucks. Then this guy is hurting her because he has a girlfriend but he's trying to hook up with my other friend. Oh and the guy i was in love with i'm starting to fall in love with again although i think he still has a girlfriend. Well thats all for now i need to go to bed so i'll write in here later peace.