Doing great with you here by my side!
Well I'm finally updating after what a very very long time hehe. It's just i'm soo bored and i need to let out some stress and fill all you people on whats been going on in my life lately like the ups and downs. Well why don't we start off with the good part of my life hehe. Lets see i've fallen in love with someone and he is soooo great we have soo much in common that i never thought it was possible hehe. He always makes me smile no matter what mood i'm in and i feel like i'm on top of the world when i'm with him and in his arms. Hes really wonderful i know you all are probably wondering who this guy is and well some of you may know but i guess i'll tell you anyway it's ryan. Well i haven't really wanted regrets this year because it's my last year you know and soo i told heather i was sorry i know usually i'm the one who always ends up ending everything and feeling quilty but it's hard you know so me and heather are friends again and i'm glad i admit even though we have had our fights and she's done some stuff to me i still missed that girl you know because we've had alot of memories. Well then brittney has told me sorry i mean i'm glad she did but i'm still not going to jump right into that one right now. Well anthony hates me now but i want some closure with him and i don't know how to get that with him because i don't want to call him and like him hangup everytime i try to call and i'll end up getting even more annoying so hopefully i'll find a way to do that and hopefully it'll be soon. I also am starting to realize that my life is about to start i'm looking for a job but so far no luck and i also have an appoitment with the army national guard on tuesday just to sit down with my parents and a recruiter to find out information but ryan doesn't want me to join i think he would rather have me live with him. But i still want to find out about it because it might help me out with my future so we'll see how that goes. It starting to hit me hard that this year is my last and i might not see some of these people anymore because of college and stuff and some of my friends have been there for me through thick and thin and i'm going to miss every single one of them. Oh i've been hangingout with melissa more and she's just awesome i love that girl she's soo cool we have kinda been in the same situation not alot but most of it and so we know how each other feels. I've also made a cool friend her names crystal she's great and she's really nice. Well i think thats all that has really happend so i guess i'll write in here later because i have to go jump in the shower in a bit and this has become really long so i'll see you all later and i luv all of u well bye.