My Party....and Night with JT....
BEWARE OF SEMI_NUDITY BEHIND CUT! so my party was tonight, it was so "intence" if u want to say. it started off wonderful, JT had said he loved me, and i know he wasnt lying, because he had said that he wanted to wait till we actually loved eachother before saying the words and all, to make it special.
anyways, JT and i decided to go down to my room for a little bit, just to chill alone and everything, we started to kiss, and then things started to go farther, we decided to take things to the next level, we were caught up in the passion and all...
so anyway, JT ended up taking off my shirt, and i took off his, and unbuttoned his pants...and as we were almost ready to "go through with it" something click in my head, and i couldnt do it...all i could remember was Jay, and the ravine, and how much that whole incodent really hurt me. i didnt think i could go through that again, and i wasnt so certain that JT actually loved me, or just wanted to get in my pants.
so i threw my shirt back on, and stormed out of my room, leaving JT semi-nude, and alone. i immediatly started crying, and i didnt know what to do...then JT walked out onto my porch, we talked about what had happened, and what we should do about it...JT was really understanding, suprising because usual guys dont act like that....but we talked through it, and i know that JT does love me, and i truly love him back...we decided that we arent ready for this yet, to discover our relationship first, and then explore new things.
i love u JT and im glad that u are the kind and understanding person that u are
xoxo
Emma
anyways, JT and i decided to go down to my room for a little bit, just to chill alone and everything, we started to kiss, and then things started to go farther, we decided to take things to the next level, we were caught up in the passion and all...
so anyway, JT ended up taking off my shirt, and i took off his, and unbuttoned his pants...and as we were almost ready to "go through with it" something click in my head, and i couldnt do it...all i could remember was Jay, and the ravine, and how much that whole incodent really hurt me. i didnt think i could go through that again, and i wasnt so certain that JT actually loved me, or just wanted to get in my pants.
so i threw my shirt back on, and stormed out of my room, leaving JT semi-nude, and alone. i immediatly started crying, and i didnt know what to do...then JT walked out onto my porch, we talked about what had happened, and what we should do about it...JT was really understanding, suprising because usual guys dont act like that....but we talked through it, and i know that JT does love me, and i truly love him back...we decided that we arent ready for this yet, to discover our relationship first, and then explore new things.
i love u JT and im glad that u are the kind and understanding person that u are
xoxo
Emma