lonely....
meh i feel so lonely, no ones around, does get kinda weird talking to people through a computer screen, i really need a day time job! This is getting so silly, (don't get me wrong, even tho i dont like me actual job, me team mates are cool and i get on with them all, even though sam's left :( she was a cool dudette, a rite laugh, me money is also really good, get payed tomorrow :) ) getting sick of this 18 hours aweek evening shift, i need to be doing things during the day, but theres nothing, my mates have gone off to uni at other ends of the country :( makin summit of their lives and other mates are at work during the day. God why do i feel so down half the time, im such a depressant. Fingers crossed that i find a day time job eh!? maybe then my lifestyle won't be so shit, by the time i go to work im knackered cos ive done nowt all day.
Dunno where things are going with nath, we hardly talk, really hurts cos like him so much. I want to meet up with him, he says he does as well, but its like its all left up to me. Think im just gunna leave things up to him from now on, mayb then i will know what he really wants, meh i dunno :( love the dude so much. Wanna visit margs in sheffield next month, he said he would try and come when i asked him. Im also going to Bristol in Nov to visit christa, maybe he will come then too. Wish we could just be together with no hassle, i had a shit year last year with tully and losing mates, why wont things go fucking right for once. Why can't we be with the people who we know will treat us right.
Suzanne text me the other day, so random! She said she was sorry about everything and asked if we could be friends again. I decided to text back saying that i forgive her but we couldnt be good friends again. So immaturely she text back saying summit like "well could we be friends but not good friends" my god shes got a lot of learning to do. I didnt text back.
EMBRACE
GRAVITY
honey, it's been a long time coming, and i can't stop now such a long time running, and i can't stop now do you hear my heart beating? can you hear that sound? 'cause i can't help thinking that i don't look down and then i looked up at the sun and i could see oh, the way that gravity turns for you and me and then i looked up at the sky and saw the sun and the way that gravity turns on everyone on everyone baby, it's been a long time waiting, such a long, long time and i can't stop smiling, oh i can't stop now do you hear my heart beating? do you hear that sound? 'cause i can't stop crying and i won't look down and then i looked up at the sun and i could see oh, the way that gravity turns on you and me and then i looked up at the sun and saw the sky and the way that gravity pulls on you and i on you and i